Today's sunday. I'm workin' today. I slept at forggy's place lastnite and so as the other nite before that..Today whenni tried to use Yahoo Messenger, i found out that it cant be opened. BIG prob..now i wonder what will i be doin without YM, i lost contact with my frens, my skoolmates and above all my froggy...

Really wonder wut froggy's doin now..is he continuing his sleeping after walking me to the gate justnow..or is he playing PS2 wif Jib or is he having his bfast now??? My mind is swirling his name now..miss him so much of all sudden..

I Turn To You
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When I'm lost
In the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way
When I'm scared
Losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around

And when I'm down
Your there
Pushing me to the top

Your always there giving me all you got

For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For the love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you

When I lose
The will to win
I just reach for you
And I can reach the sky again
I can doAnything
Cause your love is so amazing
That your love inspires me

And when i need a friend
Your always on my side

Giving me faith
And taking me through the night

For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For the love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
I turn to you

For the arms to be my shelter through all
The rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart i can rely on through anything
(you can rely on me)
For the world to
I can feel to...oh yeah
I turn to you
For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For the love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you

For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you

-christina arguilera-

Dream and Handy

ONE said that if u keep dreaming, it will not come true. well, dude yer wrong! And why yer wrong is simply because i've proven that's true. And why it's true???? This is why~

Couple days back, i dreamt that i was walkin' in a foggy atmostphere and suddenly i realised my phone is gone. I was so worried that i searched for it all over the place (dunno wut place it was). To cut it short, i didnt manage to find it; instead I found jewelleries.

I woke up worriedly, and told froggy bout this matter. Obviously both of us think that it was just a dream..And i carried my life and routines as usual until yesterday, after i walked outta gym, i realised that my handy was gone! gone! gone! gone...

I was so furious, heartbroken..This is like the 4th time i lost handphone. 1st time was when i was in matriculation, 2nd in UUM, 3rd after i graduated and 4th is NOW...

Obviously, this incident proves that:

1.) Am such a careless guy

2.) Dream could come true

3.)Am a psychic (fortune telling anyone)

Upon hearing my ordeals, Froggy has being so supportive- calming me down; and the most important he didnt lecture me a bit about it..

Thanks to him, i could still proceed with my plan-lepak with my cousins. At 1st we wana lepak at DanauSetapak Uptown (i prefer to call it downtown though) but it was close on Thursday, so we endup lepak-ing at NZ up until 2a.m. Talking bout love, i realised that everyone has their one unique lovelife...

guess wut, mine's not that bad after all...

happy moment wif my handy***sob~

I LOVE MY JOB????

I LOVE MY JOB

i love my job, i love the pay

i love it more and more each day.

i love my boss, he is the best!

i love his boss and all the rest

i love my office and its location, i hate i have to go on vacation

i love my furniture, drab and grey, and piles of paper that grow each day

i think my job is really swell, there's nothing else i love so well

i love to work among my peers, i love their leers, and jeers and sneers.

i love my computer and its software;i hug it often though it wont care.

i love each program and every file.i'd love them more if they worked a while

im happy to be here, i am i am

i love this work, i love these chores

i love the meetings with deadly bores.

i love my job-i'll say it again-i even love those friendly men.

those friendly men who've come today,in clean white coats to take me away

-the lost Dr Seuss Poem

Upon reading this poem, i looked at myself and thought, "Aren't we ALL?????"
***menci!!!!..menci keje kat TMNEt

Bucuk's Birthday

Uiks, it has been for couple of weeks i didn't update my blog..Sigh...Ops, before i forget,

~~~ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU~~~
~~~~~ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU~~~
~~~ALLAH SELAMATKAN BUCUKKU SAYANG~~
~~~~~~~ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU~~~

BUCUK, happy 27th birthday (although he keeps saying that he's 19). I pray that you 'll be happy here and thereafter..always get what you want (insy), in great health and blessed by Allah...Amin..

Paintball attack!!!

LAst WeeKend (17th June 2006), i went for a Paintball games atULU YAM. It was nice, kinda extreme but awsome!!!!
-malas nak cakap lelebih..tengok je la gambor~~~

A marathon on a weekend

IT WAS A HECTIC WEEKEND, BUT I LOVE IT!!!!

Well, i don't think that i should elaborate in detail; therefore i'll list out what were the occasions that i had been to on last weekend:

p/s: the marathon didnt really start on weekend ( saturday ), rather earlier that is on friday itself.

1st day: friday (KLPAC)
On friday I worked until 5.30pm and rush to Kelana Jaya LRT station. Met Paranoi8 there, and together; we rushed to Sentul-we supposed to meet ma 2 other friends there. We were gona watch The Fastest Clock In The Universe at 8.30pm!!!! How kewl is that?????.....and the play was in KLPAC.
....And to tell you guys the truth...I despise KLPAC! When we arrived in Sentul LRT Station, the pakguard said that we need to drop at Sentul Timur..Arrgghh!!

Arrived at Sentul Timur, my 2 other friends didn't turn-up. Late i gotta know that Eghayana who's staying in Shah Alam was still at his house, and Muj had to pick his up from Selayang..and it was already 7.oopm..Obviously tak sempat kan??????

Waiting for them to arrive, so that they could pick us up, Paranoi8 and I decided to have a look around the local Pasar Malam (the place was &%*&#%$#*^*!!!)...At the end, we decided to go there by ourselves, but the thing was none of the stupid f***ing taxi drivers knew where that stupid KLPAC is...(well, we were being stupid too for believing that taxi driver should know every corner of the world).

We had the driver to drop us at in front of Ong Tai Kim, and waited for Muj and Eghayana to pick us there since we were totally lost.

Later, after a few cursing session at ourselves, They picked us, and we arrived so damn bloody late at KLPAC, and it's located not far from sentul timur...We arrived when it was in interval and watched it only after 15mins later. The show was awsome, cursed myself for not coming in earlier..

After the play, we went for a drink at AR-Rawsya. Since it was too late to take the lrt, we spent the nite at Fendi's house. And early of that morning, Paranoid woke me up since we will be goin' for a picnic at Ulu Yam with my two other friends

2nd Day: Saturday(Ulu Yam)

Yus and i and two our officemates went for a picnic at Ulu Yam. That wa the 1st time i went there. We picked among the most favourite spot-less people,picturesque scenery. A picnic wouldnt be a picnic without the FOOD. Luckily the two girls brought fried chicken, fries, meehoon etc. Infact, those were the thing we assaulted when we first got there.

Later when it came to mandi-manda part, i was among the last person who terjun last dlm air.The water was quite icy cold, i shivered the first time i deep my toe in the water..

Itu mula2 je, lepas tu mandi tak hengat dunia!!!..kekeke..We did have a crazy game-we arrange stones atas batu2 besar and then baling at the batu2 till it falls.(takda keja sangat kan???-takpe yg penting kejujuran..)

Later arround 2pm, we headed back to Kelana jaya...Overall, the picnic was nice..really thankful to paranoi8, Abby and Yanie for invinting me along to their trip...You guys rock!

After that picnic, I headed to KLSentral, met froggy there and together we went to Midvalley Megamall..Didnt do much, nak shopping pon duit takde sangat..hehehhe..It has been a long time we didnt go out together. Normally, i would just visit Froggy at His place since he was busy with his thesis..Really missed the time we hav spent together...

3 and 4th Day: (Sunday&Monday)

SUNDAY, MY petbro, Andy ok je, Aiman tak kesah, their friends and me headed for pahang. We went to genting Highland!!

There were 8 of us-me, Andy, Aiman,Sheera,Ezz,Anor,Ayu and her fiance. We gathered at Andy's house and headed from there.

Upon arriving at Genting, we went for the "spiderman Ride''. I have to say that for rm10, it was not a bad ride(though i think that they should make it for two rounds per game). The SpaceShot was awsome though i almost scared to death at 1st, hehehe..We went for the CorkScrew, bla..bla..and we tried almost all the available games except the Bumper boat. We went for one game to another until i could barely walk anymore. Really envy Sheera though,she has the energy of a stallion(mmg hyper habis, tak reti penat budak ni!!).

Checked-in Genting Hotel arround 7.00pm. Gosh, how i was so happy to be introduced with Handsome MrBed and lovely Miss Pillow and Blanket. We all lepak kat bilik masing2 and went out hunting for dinner arround 9.00pm.

Right after that, we went for the Indoor Games. Most of them were quite slow and boring. Well, in a way, it was a good thing since we were pretty tired after all.

MONDAY, woke up 'almost' early, and went for the buffet breakfast. I ate loads of food since I was so hungry i could eat a horse. Later we went for shopping, I didnt buy anything-keeping my budget tight. hehhehe...The we balik hotel kemas2 and headed for the skyway. If we were so hyped up went we were 1st going up to Genting, this time everybody was silent..to tired to blurt out anything. Perhaps they were all thinking when will it be the time we could all have an exhilarating trip like this ever again...

An Attack To The DIM SUM CAFE

Today 's saturday. While our Agung's celebrating his birthday, i'm stucked in my office, doing my routines-pick up calls.

These bloody customers, don't they know that it's public holiday????..Gosh, leave ur computer, internet n offices, go lepaking somewhere or cuti2 Malaysia!!!..dont bother to call us, we never missed you guys!!! HUH!

Enough with that, let us talk about the nearest Dim Sum Cafe which my two other friends and I went later this lunch time.

The place is CHI DIM SUM CAFE, located on the 1st floor of Giant Kelana Jaya offers range of dim sums which are yummy to some people but yucky to others. hehehhehee..



We ordered :
-3 plates or glutinous rice with chicken and mushroom
-1 plate of BBQ chicken bun
-1 plate of Teachew Mai
-1 plate of Teachew Ko
-1 plate of Yam Kak
-1 plate of Cheesy Seafood Snack
-and 1 pot of Kuk Pah (chrysanthemum)

Well, personally, those serving sizes didnt really meet our big-expandable-hungry-stomach, but since that was the 1st time we've been there, we were not really aware of that and we were running out of time-the lunch time was almost up, no time to order more plates. Anyway, the food was OK.
But later we went to KIng Confectionary and bought some buns and bread..(perut tong mana cukup mkn sket :P~)

I give 4 out of 5..errr..can i give 3 and half???

Balik Kampung

I went back to my hometown last week(from Tues to Friday). It has been 6 months since last Hari Raya Puasa..

Nothing much has changed in Kedah except the only happening place in AlorSetar,City Plaza now has Secret Recipe...hahahha..

Hmm, I had this strange feeling during the 1st day in Kedah-The weather was hot, but i didnt even slightly have my migraine. Quite weird isnt it??...I had migraine almost everyday in kkkkkkkkkkklhehhee..

The best thing of goin' back to hometown is, i could eat my mom's cooking..oh, how i missed her gulai ayam. All those avant-garde curry house in Kl could never be matched with her gulai!!

But then, at times, when i was alone in my house, watching the Venuzuela's Series-Ruby the bitch, my mind was not even on the TV screen...i realised....I miss Froggy..

Thank goodness, we could still contact each other thru sms and calls..
But now, since I am already here in Kl, I cant wait to meet Froggy..(rindunya bucuk!!..tak sabar nak jupe..)

Melepak!!!

Sejak dua menjak ni, dah lama aku tak melepak ngan kawan2 aku...itu bukan bermaksud aku lupe langsung dengan korang sume, cume kebelakangan ni..banyak sangat masalah yang melanda kehidupan aku..banyak yang harus difikirkan...banyak yang harus diuruskan..banyak yang harus diselesaikan...

Dan orang yang sangat-sangat memahami keadaan ini adalah froggy. Thanks so much dear for being so supportive. Its not that all of yer guys (my friends) are not helping me..but at this moment, he knows more since we kinda experiencing similar situation here..

Yet, problems are problems. They will not fade away, if you just stare.
You have to solve them, yet problem solving is not that easy...
So, besides solving them, at times, you juz need to go and lepak with yer friends!!!

hahahaa..itu sebenarnya yang aku nak cakap...so dah dua hari aku dok pegi melepak ngan Ted, Faz and Akak Anim (*lariiiiii). It's good to meet and lepak with yer all after a while i've been strugling with ma family matters and probs. S0, semalam kitorang (Faz, Ted and me) pegi window shop kejap kat KLCC..Then NAim picked us up, and we went for dinner...

we borak2 sampai dlm pkol 10mlm...mencarut sesama sendiri...It was fun though, doin' all that..hehehee..

So guys, thanks for the wonderful nite u guy have spent wif me..

mmuahhhs!!!!!

Weekend on weekdays

This weekend was an exquisite weekend, and u know why?-mine started early than other workin' people! This weekend, my off days were on Thursday and Friday-two days before the real weekend :P

Well, call me bangla or wutever (for workin on weekend)...im still glad that eventhough froggy worked on that Friday, despite all of the hectic day he faced, froggy cycled all the way from his house to SJ Carrefour to meet me.

I bunked in froggy's place that nite... (drum rolls...)

The next day, when all creatures were having their sleep~as it was Saturday morning, i woke up early just because i need to GO TO WORK!!!

During that Saturday evening, i went online (my part-time job in office) with froggy who was in his house of course. Later we agreed to watch Over The Hedge.

Over The Hedge is an animation adapted from a comic; Over the Hedge, created by Michael Fry and T Lewis. It takes a freshly skewed look at suburban living from the perspective of the animals who lived there first. The story began when RJ, a mischevious raccoon stole a bear's food and due to its greediness, all the food fell down the steep hill and off to the road and BAM!!!!!...crashed by a lorry yang melalu jalan tuh.

The bottomline is, RJ must seek for the same food he stole from Vincent the bear before fullmoon or he'll be eaten alive!...That was when he started his journey in searchin for the same food he stole, and how he met Verne, a wise tortoise and his family of possum mouse, hedgehog and squirrel and together; they formed a trap-proof- food -searchin' team! Did they manage to steal food from the human?Did Verne and his family knows 'bout RJ's dark secret? That, one needs to watch it by oneself :P~

Then, the nite was gettin' older..and older..
Froogy and me lepak2 kejap and balik to our own place...
Thanks so much Bucuk for spending yer time with me..I had a great time with you...
(***matilaa kena carots jiwang katanya!!!)

What is love????

I was onced, crying over a guy, who never even botherED whether I was alived or not,
I was onced, giving out all my money for a guy who never even bothered whether i have eaten or not;
I was onced,having my endless night thinking about a guy,while he was sleeping soundly;
and i thought, "this is love; hurting and depressing.."

...YET I KEPT ON DOIN D SAME THING

..but tasya said,"ko, kalau dah jatuh cinta lupe dunia".

mak cakap," kalu time belajaq, tak payah la dok menggatai nak bercinta-cinta nie, nanti rosak pelajaran".

What is love????

spingermorks said, "Love could be a summer, a damn hot summer that would make me in flame. Love could be winter, a damn cold winter which killing me silently inside and put me to sleep without me knowing it. Last year I found out that life was never a life without love, and I was so stupid to define love of two persons, shared by two, only by two. but, last year, to contradict I later figured out that love was no larger than life if one didnt know how to love oneself. How could one love others when one didn't even know where to draw the line of respect and love himself?"
(matila i pon conpius)

Froggy said, "Love to me is very sacred....it shouldn't be abused or confused with sex."

for me, love is everything. love is like chocolate; the sweet taste melts in your mouth (this is where we get sweet words come from), deliciously irresistable yet fattening and to d worst case scenario, u'll get diabetic. (*matila ko britney spears yg suke orgasm mkn coklat)

yes, love is devine..but we human tends to misused it and call having sex (1 to 1 , 3sum and orgy) as making love too; thus deriving the real meaning of the 'devine ' itself to love.

yes, love can appear before us without being notice unti one we love has gone.

Love can come in different shapes, heights, weights, ages....but people tend to misused it for their preferences.
(*matile bebudak chat yg dok sibuk nk tengok stats orang!!)

Love is when u sacrifice urself without making urself a stupid guy. People tend to sacrifice everything for one they love..giving all they have, yet at the end when love is not in the air.....he lost everything including himself!-believe me, if one u love, loves u as much s u love him, the last thing he would one is for you to sacrifice urself..if he asks that,darn him; for love is to give, not to be asked for!

'for he who asks should be thrown into the dungeon'

-matila mane2 kitab aku pakai!

Anyway, s much s we (froggy n i) dun celebrate valentine's day, i hope that everybody , especially to all of my frens; may you guys meet the guy who will love u; and may the love will be cherished to the max!

p/s: if u guys could recall, it is on this date, i wrote a post in a distressful manner showing how lonely i was. Alhamdulillah, the rain has gone; although it's not for forever but the silver lining that appears is enough to make me feel livelier!

-to abg masyam, happy valentine's day( yeah2 i know x elok sambut..dose..i x sambut;sebut jer.. :-P)

-to egha, Ted,faz, isis,andy, sheera,aiman, muja, paranoi8,izuan,ben, musang,muja and others; may love sets u free !!!

He is the one

He is the one

He's the 1st child,

He knows how to make me smile,

He holds me in his muscled arms

He always keeps me warm

He is now the man of the house.

He Cleanses.

He cooks.

He draws.

He cycles.

He has this sweet goofy face

He oftens called garfield

He oftens called JLo

He has all the features of both names

He is the one I admire

He makes my heart skips a beat

He is my love

It is him; the one I desire...

saya rindu awak

saya rindu awak
rindu senyuman awak
penawar kesedihan saya

saya rindu awak
rindu gelak tawa awak
yg menggegarkan hati saya
yg sememangkan dambakan kegembiraan



saya rindu awak
rindu muka goofy awak
buat saya leka akan segalanya
peghibur di kala lara...



saya rindu awak
rindu suara besar awak
yg sesekali menyanyikan lagu
pendodoi waktu tidur saya...

saya rindu awak
rindu masakan awak
terasa di bibir ini
self saucing choc pudding;
butterscotch..

saya rindu awak...
rindu pelukan awak..
hangat suam badan awak
penenang hati ini

saya rindu awak
rindu bau awak..
yg menusuk terus ke hati saya...
membuat kan saya angau
walaupun awak tiada di sisi

saya rindu awak
rindu yg masih ditahan...
takut tertumpah ke tanah
bersia ke lantai..

saya rindu awak
rindu awak...
sebab awak adalah awak
cinta hati saya..
penawar racun saya
mr froggy saya
bucuk saya
cayang saya..
hubby saya..

awak rindu saya?

the weekend

this weekend, i didnt do much. woke up abit late (missed my subuh :P), and did some house chores (if washing my own dishes after breakfast can be considered as one); and watched cartoons with the lil' devils of the house (my niece n nephew).

Later after that, i called up Froggy and set our date of the day. Since froggy has to settle certain stuff, will be coming quite late, I called up hantuAlex to join me at KlCC, and also Ted to lepak2 with me. I was planning to watch movie, but yikes, the queues were heaven long that we than decided to look for Faz's birthday present. By the way, Faz is celebrating his 23th birthday today (7th May 2006).

Hantu left after a while when his 'petBrother' came~~petbro ke scandal???..hahhahaaa!!!

Ted and me were climbing up and down KlCC to find B' day gift for Faz, and at last we decided to get him a fuzzy huggable teddy bear from Asiana~(sesuai la ngn kakak faz)

Later, Ted headed for the gym, and i continue waiting for froggy at Kinokuniya while reading Shopaholic and Sis written by Sophie Kinsella.

Then after an hour, Froggy came-how i missed froggy so much..even more rite now~~

Then Ted called, saying that ben wana meet us (or meet only him??-matila ted). Along with Ben, was his mom, Ron and Ikhsan. After saying hye and bye, Ted And HantuAlex headed back to each others' place while Mr Froggy and I went to Jusco to look for something, some important thing (at least to us).

We then decided to give it sometimes before we buy that something, and headed for supermarket since froggy wanna make dinner~(well, i dunno how to cook, malanglah awak dapat saya; suami yg xreti masak :P)

Bunkin' in my place, Froggy made this fusion yee mee with blackpaper sausages, Tom Yum Flavoured fish cakes, Bak Choy and fish balls. Perrgghhhh, mertua lalu confirm tak perasan!!!

A couple of friends were asking me to join 'em in MTQ, but i've decided not to since I wana spend more time with Froggy, becaused the next day, Froggy has to leave early since there are things to be done. Furthermore, we dont really have time for each other that much besides weekend. So iwould love to spend the precious time with Froggy...

Yer All would say my weekend is kinda cheesy, but insyaallah..wutever for you dear...
mmuahhhhh!!!

***Over la pulak..matila...mati!!!

p/s: Happy birthday to Fazliana Puqueimawaty Jubouriya~~kekekkee

opsss!!!

Its been for quite sumtimes i didnt update my blog aite???..ish..teruk btol aku nih!!!

Well for a start let me juz tell that i didnt get the job at KRU since they didnt want to fork up more money to hire an admin, and so they are putting all those abundance jobs at Ted.

2ndly, there were certain occasions happened which i havent got time to jot it down here..(sigh~)

3rdly, hmm...let me juz list down wut i've been doin so far chronologically:

Tell you wut, why cant we juz let bygones be bygones..and start a new life????..



But tonite, there's gona be a launching at MTQ due to its grand opening, access fee is rm20, and the theme is pink n' black!!..but i dun think am goin' since Froggy has some stuff to do..but froggy's workin on it so that all the stuff will be settled and we can go and hav fun there..

Still, no biggie bout it in case we didnt have chance to go there tonite..there will always be some other time ;)

the interview

the interview

Yesterday(25.4.06) i went for an interview at KRUComm. The interview went good..i guess. Interviewed by Bard Indigo, he offered me rm1.5K, well..i didnt wana sound demanding, but im sorta in financial crises now. So i'd love to hav at least a basic of rm1.7K..Still, it's not confirm yet that am gona get that job or wut..so, let it be in God's hands.

Today, I hav this QA(Quality Assurance) assesment in TMNet, it's sum kinda exam that i have to sit to get promoted to QA..As much as i hate to work in TMNet, I need this post as a backup.

Well, I do need to grab every opportunity dont I?

the talk

the talk

At last, we have succesfully managed to get through the obstacle together...and tell you the truth, it was not that easy.

At 1st, my heart sunk; i got so hurt that i just couldnt feel anythin' nemore. I couldnt feel anythin'-dissapointed, feelin' of missin sumone, sad and so forth. I felt so restless that i almost lost my passion over the relationship

I dont want to lose it, god forbid. but i was so blue at that time. Froggy and i had sum discussion via YM; the atmosphere was hot with the idea of pullin back the relationship to its early stage when froggy brought up the idea of goin' slow.

then, we met and discussed about it face to face. While havin' meals, Froggy told me that some of the friends know that we are an item. Feelinglessly, i keep on eating after hearing him saying that. that's bcoz i just dunno whut to feel, how to show it anymore after whut has happened. froggy felt so disappointed when i didnt give a damn bout it at all-not shocked, happy sad or excited.Deep in my heart, i wish hard i know how i wana show my feeling, it sanked deep in my heart.Then i proposed that we go to a place where we could talk privately.

After couples of arguments, we agreed on certain things:
1. we still gona be an item
2. we still in love with each other
3. we gona take it slowly-cherish the time we'r havin' and not thinkin big
4. less sex
5. less bunkin in at each other's place
6. more time spending together outside d house
7. froggy's gona gimme some time to get my passion back
8. froggy's gona push his fear a side and embrace love
9. i'll treat froggy as how i treat froggy b4
10.we agreed that we gona go for our honeymoon one day

Well, it seems that now, everythin' falls on its place back and am startin' to feel the passion one again..

Will love conquer it all???

..that depends...

biarla rahsia?

biarlah rahsia-siti nurhaliza

Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika
berada di tempat ku
membayangkan pahit manis berlaku
tiada siapa yang tahu
mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan
berdepan dengan kata menyesatkan
tak kan kutiada pertimbangan

**keheningan malam membalutkan
kepayahan jiwa meluahk
anandai kau jujur memahami
tiadaku menjauhi

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang
menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantasku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsia
semakin aku hitung dalam cinta
tiada kuasa mampu menghalangnya
hentikan kata-kata bertulangkan dusta

**keheningan malam membalutkan
kepayahan jiwa meluahkan
andai kau jujur memahami
tiada ku menjauhi

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang
menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantas ku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsiaoooooo

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang
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istana pasir impian????

Pedihnya tuhan yang tahu, tatkala membina istana pasir yang disangkakan kukuh,???? memerlukan hanya sekali pukulan ombak yang memghempas dan semuanya hancur berkecai di kala kita menyangkakan istana pasir hampir siap dibina...pembinaan harus dimulakan sekali lagi...pengumpulan pasir di pantai, mengayak pasir dari batu2 kasar, pembentukan istana yang lebih kukuh..semuanya boleh dijalankan semula..
Persoalannya, terdetik dalam hati sang pembina yang seperti mana usibah yang berlaku sekarang..istana pasir yang baru ada potensinya untuk dihempas ombak yang menggila semula..lagi....lagi..lagi..dan lagi...
Dan di manakah keyakinannya sang pembina hendak dipahatkan??..pada kontraktor yang penuh was-was atau dirinya..hati yang penuh luka dek kemusnahan istana pasir...kekhuatirannya terhadap istana pasir yang bakal dibina...
Terdetik pada hati sang pembina, mungkin sudah nasibnya...mungkin sudah takdirnya..risiko membina sebuah istana pasir yang penuh dengan igauan..yg sebelumnya menjadi idaman...
Adakah dia patut menyerah kalah...berhenti untuk membina, dan mengusahakan sesuatu yang lain pula..atau dia patut terus membina dengan harapan istana yang kedua lebih kukuh dari sebelumnya..ataupun....berhenti..dan terus mati???

Migraine attacks

Today starts with a good day..i woke up early, did my subuh prayers and then went for my morning jog....An hour later, i headed for the nearest kedai mamak and had my breakfast tea there while reading ''Faghag'', a novel borrowed from androi8. am still struggling to finish reading it..kekekkeee...

After havin my quiet time sittin alone there in kedai mamak, i headed home( my fren's house, since im staying in his house this whole week as am havin my afternoon shift which finishes at 12pm) and watch Oprah. Then i decided to take a short nap; i normally do that after doing some exercises.

When i woke up, i had this major headache...have not had it for quite sometimes. I tought it was just for a short while and so i headed for shower, lunch and went to work..

After 2 hours bustling with the customers, i decided to take MC since i just couldnt bear it anymore..this migraine is killing me!

What ur name means......... check it out !!

What ur name means......... check it out !!

Instructions : What you do is find out what each letter of your name means.

Then connect all the meanings and it describes YOU. (Its TRUE) &(Is'ntit GREAT !!)

If you have double or triple letters, just count the meaning once.For Example : MARK

M - Success comes easily to you.
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
R - You are a social butterfly.
K - You like to try new things.

A = You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B = You are always cautious when it comes to meeting newpeople.
C = You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
D = You have trouble trusting people.
E =You are a very exciting person.
F = Everyone loves you.
G = You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H =You are not judgmental.
I =You are always smiling and making others smile.
J =Jealously
K =You like to try new things.
L = Love is something you deeply believe in.
M = Success comes easily to you.
N = You like to work, but you always want a break.
O = You are very open-minded.
P =You are very friendly and understanding.
Q = You are a hypocrite.
R =You are a social butterfly.
S = You are very broad-minded.
T = You have an attitude, a big one
.U = You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V = You have a very good physique and looks.
W = You like your privacy.
X = You never let people tell you what to do.
Y = You cause a lot of trouble.
Z = You're always fighting with someone.

CHECK YOUR NAME MEANING

Love or hate???

"
i love it but i hate it.
i love it when u make me smile but i hate it when u make me cry.i love it when u tell me how much u love me but i hate it when u act like u dont care.i love it when u say sorry but i hate it when u do the same mistake again.i love it when thinking about u eases the pain but i hate it not knowing whether u do feel the same..i love it when i just love everything about u but i hate it when i cant hate u...

not even a bit.not even close.not even a little.not even at all..."

_________________________________________courtesy from shamir

Yeah..yeah ...am a copycat..Say wutever u wana say, call me wutever u may but as i read his writing...there was only one thing that i wanna say; " been there, done that" .

One thing that i know, those words remind me of wut am feeling rite now...rather deeper...and hating the person whom we admire most is impossible...not even in our dictionary of mind~believe me..its true!!!

p/s: dear to sumone, glad that we've been talkin things out..glad that i've met u...

Froggy days out!!!

Well, there was nothing much i did during last weekend...but again, it's not how many things you have done, it's how much for each stuff you've treasured and cherished!!

saturday(25 march '06)

• juz 'lepak'ing at my house, my parents came from kg, spent some time with them
• later on when they went out to Bentong, Pahang meeting the 'in-laws'
• my ex-coursemates, arep panjang and amer kapitan came and we went for drinks at Starbucks-its been for quite sometimes we didnt meet, reminisced the ol' time when we used to 'lepak' ramai in the club room and mengumpat!!!
• Arep took us for dinner at William's-a nice stall in near ol' LimKokWeng college; the baked pasta and Thripple H were heaven!!!-it was arep's treat, god bless u!
• Went to Abu's house, took my 'wallet' which i left in his house the other day
• Froggy was not feelin' so well, and so i went to froggy's house-no outings for this weekend, but meeting froggy was more interesting than shopping in Harrod's (well, never been to Harrod's before)
• surprisingly, froggy has made a butter scotch especially for me...the taste was yummy !!!

thanx to you~~ (",)

• that very nite, we talked a lot bout our goals..what we gona do in future...and last but not least about us specifically

Sunday (26 march '06)

• Woke up so late! It was almost 11am..kekekekkee...dun ask why!!!
• had my lunch at Froggy's place
• since froggy was not feeling so well, we decided not to go out. Instead, watched naruto which froggy dowloaded until evening
• Evening, we had our tea (well, we went for Mc D and had sodas-it was during tea time) at Sbg Parade..kekekkekee
• Froggy walked me to the Komuter..and i rushed back to kl

Ops..before i forget, there was something that froggy gave me-A BUG. Not an ordinary bug...a special one..kekekekkeke!!!

To worry or not TOO worry???

Starting my shift at 3pm, i got sumfree time to chat in YM and checked my emails and all that. Suddenly, i got this msg from an important person saying that this person's health was not at the best state..n i felt so worried...

And again, after a few conversation with this person, i realised that; by worrying too much, i was not only creating a destructive condition, rather putting much pressure to the person...You see, when u feel worry for someone, it shows that that perticular person is important for you..and telling that person how inportant that person is to you indirectly indicates to that person that that person has to bear such a big responsibility as an important person for you...

In a nutshell, being an important person is not only a privillage but rather a responsibility-one new lesson that i'll never forget!!!


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[15:43] s***: : syg
[15:43] s***: i dah balik umah
[15:43] s***: not feeling well
[15:43] s***: i xnak buat u risau
[15:43] s***: pls jgn risau
[15:43] s***: i nak mkn ubat ni
[15:43] s***: sok g jupe my specialist...ive md n appointment
[15:44] kasthata: syg???
.[15:47] s***: syg
[15:47] s***: pls jgn risau
[15:47] s***: i kat toilet td masa u call..i mandi n rfreshen up
[15:47] kasthata: syg.....
[15:48] kasthata: i x sedap ati...
[15:48] kasthata: :(
[15:48] kasthata: sian u...
[15:48] s***: dun worry
[15:48] s***: please?
[15:48] s***: jgnla risau
[15:48] s***: i tau apa i perlu buat
[15:48] kasthata: i terkejut sgt2 tetiba u anta msg td
[15:48]s***: sbb tu i mintak kebenaran bos i 2 balik awal sbb nak g klinik
[15:49] s***: jgnle camtu
[15:49] s***: u ni..
i[15:49] kasthata: am worry for u...
[15:49] s***: thx 4 the concern
[15:49] s***: i really appreciate it
[15:49]s***: sian u..sampai abis kredit call i td
[15:49] s***: u tau tak u amat penting 4 me..
[15:49] s***: sori sgt
[15:50] kasthata: i cant help myself..thinkin bout u..
[15:50] s***: jgnla ckp camtu
[15:50] kasthata: its ok..
[15:50] s***: u buat i rs bersalah
[15:50] kasthata: u tak wat salah pun..
[15:50] s***: im not all tht
[15:50] kasthata: nape u nak rasa bersalah plak
[15:51] kasthata: ur not all wut??
[15:51] s***: yela..sbb i tlh buat sesuatu yg membuatkan u anggap i important
[15:51] kasthata: ??
[15:51] s***: maksudnya...i bukanlah baik or terbagus
[15:51] kasthata: it doesnt matter syg
[15:51] s***: mungkin ada yg lebih baik buat u kat luar tu
[15:52] kasthata: syg..nape u ckp macam ni?
[15:52] kasthata:
[15:52] s***: pls jgn salah fhm
[15:52] kasthata: smlm u x suke i ckp mcm ni..skg u plak yg ckp
[15:52] kasthata:
[15:52] s***: i hargai the way u treat me..as in im important to u
[15:53] s***: tp pls dont put me as the most important thing in ur life
[15:53] kasthata: bcoz u r sayang..
[15:53] s***: if u do...besar tanggungjawab
[15:53] kasthata: u x suke takpela
[15:53] kasthata: its k
[15:53] s***: bukan i xsuka
[15:53] s***: im really flattered.
[15:53] kasthata: no..its k...
[15:53] s***: cuma i belum buktikan n belum layak utk jd the most important thing 2u just yet
[15:53] s***: pls undestand
[15:53] kasthata: ok...
.[15:54] s***: syg...i tau ur mind is clouded rite now
[15:54] s***: confused
[15:54]s***: lagi2 selepas dgr i ckp camni
[15:55] s***: i teringin nak jadi important 2u....tp buat masa skang i rs i kene usaha lebih utk dptkan title tu
[15:55] s***: syg
[15:55] s***: u ok ?
[15:55] s***: syg
[15:55] kasthata: syg...
[15:55] s***: ye
[15:56] kasthata: sorry..
[15:56] s***: napa sorry?
[15:57] kasthata: i buat u rasa tertekan..sbb like u...i pon berusaha keras nak jd org yg important dlm hidup u...
[15:57] s***: its ok
[15:57] s***: i betul2 appreciate wht u r doin
[15:57] s***: segala usaha u i appreciate
[15:58] kasthata: thnx..
[15:58] kasthata: i pon sama....

>>>end<<<<

Those were some part of our conversation...when i went through back all of our conversation..i noticed that perhaps, i did put some pressure to the air..and for that, my dear am sorry!!!

Beauty-is there an ultimate definition to it??

"When I began my career with Christian Dior in Paris at age 19, my idea of beauty was what others thought about me. If people approved of me and wanted to book me for a modeling job, then I concluded that I must be pretty. My logic was that if I was successful and working then I must be beautiful."-Laura Krauss Calenberg

What is beauty? Everybody wants to be beautiful or in this case, to have a good look. Look has been a crucial feature when one wants to find for partner or soulmate or whatever..It cant be denied that sometimes, we tend to forget that being beautiful doesnt necessarily mean that one has to has fair complexion, muscular or tone body, flawless skin and all that. We forgot one bloody important, the beauty that lies underneath one's skin, deep in one's heart...

It is not physical appearance. It's what's found inside, what's in your heart. Security and self-esteem are beautiful. And knowing God personally brings beauty, because knowing He loves you and accepts you brings security and self-esteem to your life. That enables you to be free to accept and love yourself and your shortcomings.

And as for me, i dont deny that:
1) the 1st impression does come from our look and how we present ourself toward people
2)the 1st impression does not necessarily important
3)i do give a second glance for one who has a nice look
4)but for the 3rd glance, i look deep inside one's heart and try to dicover the beauty of it
5)the inner beauty is important, infact most crucial in searching for one you love

And i specially want to dedicate this post to someone special i have met who has changed my life, boost my spirit and make me feel happy. Someone who i really admire..someone who has biguel shape of heart, beautiful thoughts on me, someone who like me for me....someone who has a beautiful soul and dear, this song is for u....


"Beautiful Soul"

[Intro:]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

[Chorus:]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mindIf you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

[Chorus]
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your soul

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul..
ooooooo...
Beautiful Soul, yeah
oooooo, yeah
Your beautiful soul
yeah

jesse Mccartney

the truth tastes bitter?

"tell the truth even though it tastes bitter"~~

Everytime we question others about certain things, in some parts of our mind do hope for an answer that suited the question.....but what happen when the answer is not likely to we wanted to hear???

For certain people, they will feel depressed and dissapointed..i did feel that way too at times..and what i normally did was, try to think in depth why did i get that kind of answer in the first place, rationalised it and try to compromise with the situation..and it does take time...

At the end, we realised that, at last as long as the answer is the truth, it should be taken into account and we should swallow the truth regardless how bitter it is....

A frog that longed for happy ending

This is a story i've never told anyone before~~a story told by a friend of a friend of a friend of mine...

Once upon a time, there was an ugly frog(F1) which never get engaged with any frog more than 3 months..after couples of depressing relationship, F1 shunned itself from the green world and hid itself under its home sweet coconut shell..
:(

After hiding itself for a couple of months,F1 actually managed to get out of the coconut shell and tried to mingle with other frogs...Things were getting better for F1 until it realised that it was totally a loner!!!~so it prayed hard for the fairyfrog-mother to match it for a partner...

At 1st, it was not blessed until one day when it went for a congress conference and met the perfect frog ever(F2)~(p/s:for a frog, gorgeousness depends on the sound they make while conferencing, =p)

Starting from that very day, those two frogs started to date each other....ops, b4 i forget, their 1st date was in Eygpt; on the top of Giza pyramid peak gazing for the blue moon..kekeke!!

And now...They are still trying to understand each other although they are from the same frog species but different family; and the ugly frog (F1) is now tryin' to cope with its new life with F2 and hopin for a better future~~and ONE thing that they really lookin foward to right now-A happy ENDING

V's day??

Valentine's has passed us by, and I really glad that i had successfully gone through it-am still alive after that day!!!!..kekekkekee...

Well, when Valentine's came, it reminded me of how i am so all alone in this world, not that i dun hav family or what...but it made me realised that my love life is so....BORING!!!!-All this while, i tried to keep myself busy and be around my friends..but that just didnt work on Valentine's!

Well, during valentine's, most of my frens were celebrating it with their partner and lovers or scandals or whutever they may call it...the point is, most of them had their own agenda when V's came..and the winner of the most lonely bachelor is going to Mr Kastriya!!!!!~~~~~~~i heard big applauses~~they are everywhere....or am i too paranoid bout it?????

Hmm, the bottomline is, i endup 3 days on the bed due to high fever illness and took 2 MCs and 3 times visit to the clinic~~my life is complete!!

am i that lonely????

@>~~~am so lonely..i hav nobody..am on my own.aaaarrrr!!!!~~~<@

Well..tiada apa yang menarik berlaku dalam seminggu dua ni cume aku telah single mingle dengan rasminya..kekekkee..no more scandals at the moment...hahahahaa...the best thing bout it is that you dont have to feel bad or worry when the other party sort of like ignoring and din bother you..the downside is that..you will feel so lonely even when you are surrounded by frens.. ('',)...

Gone with that, i met a special person A..cute but cool..we tried to be frens..but deep in my heart. i do hope that it was not only a friendship. The feeling was there but~..why are they always buts in our life??????????...i knew that A was kinda fancy me as i am to A, but the main problem was again; whether are we ready to adhere to the commitment or not?????..seems like we are not..and A started to keep silent..AARRGgGghhhhh....again, wut a pathetic love life am havin'!!!!

Muhasabah diri???

NOVEMBER (my month)
Banyak idea dalam perkara, sukar utk dimengertikan atau difahami sikapnya, berfikiran kehadapan, berfikiran unik dan bijak, penuh dgn idea-idea baru yg luarbiasa, pemikiran yg tajam, daya firasat yg sgt halus dan tinggi, bagus utk jadi doktor, cermat dan teliti, personality dinamik, sifat yg berahsia, pandai mencungkil dan mencari rahsia, banyak berfikir, kurang bercakap tetapi mesra, berani, pemurah, setia dan byk kesabaran, terlalu degil dan keras hati, apabila hendak. Diusahakan sehingga berjaya, taksuka marah kecuali digugat, mudah ambil berat terhadap orang lain, pandai muhasabah diri, cara berfikir lain dari org lain, otak yg sangat tajam, pandai mendorong diri sendiri, tidak hargai pujian, kekuatan semangat dan daya juang yg sgt tinggi, dan apabila hendak sesuatu cuba sampai berjaya, badan yg tough, kasih sayang dan emosi yang sangat mendalam, romantik, tidak pasti dgn hubungan kasih sayang, suka duduk dirumah, sangat rajin dan berkemampuan tinggi, amanah, jujur setia dan pandai berahsia, tidak berapa berjaya dalam mengawal emosi, bercita-cita tinggi, perangai tidak dapat diramal dan mudah berubah-ubah..

"Kalau sesiapa perasan, ini adalah kes studi yang dijalankan selama 25 tahun, bukan sekadar bacaan tapak tangan atau ramalan mengarut..nak percaya atau tidak..terpulang...yg penting disini, what i want to is to get the confirmation from u guyz, u see me, talked to me, mixed with me, so see whether it is actually reflected my behaviour or not?????"..the highlighted phrases are what i think correct..otherss??? plz inform me then...

Home sweet home????

Mulai semalam, aku dah pindah ke rumah baru dekat area Wangsa Budi, dalam seksyen 4 atau 5 wangsa maju (aku tak pasti langsung)..nasib baik aku keje, so sume keje pemindahan dibuat oleh tukang angkut yang diupah khas (malas siot nk tolong)...

Takder apo yang menarik sangat tentang rumah baru ni melainkan yang ianya lebih besar and sebenarnya agak murah dari harga yang ditawarkan...

Harga rumah ini dibuka dengan harga rm380K, kemudian disebabkan pinjaman penuh tak dapat, so owner turunkan kepada rm350K...itupun tak diluluskan oleh bank lahanat tu..bank cume kasi setakat rm300K je..bile owner tau pasal tuh, since they really need money ASAP, they hav agreed to that amount!!!!..kekekekekee..senang2 jer dapat rm80K rebate!!!!..rezeki Tuhan...

Sebut pasal rumah, semua org teringin nak ada rumah sendiri satu hari nanti kan?..ada yang suka stay kat apartment, kondo, terrace houses and even bungalow..My dream house?????...hmm..let see, i wanna hav a moderate size bungalow house equipped with a lawn yard and swimming pool (quite typical ekkk!!)..but the most special thing are the interiors..it will definately not going to be that typical..no flowers (yikes), no pink color, only nude ones..hehehhee..i will go for earthy colors-choc brown, beige, cream, greyish brown...hehehhee..cam gile plak aku rase..

The reason why these color are choosen is that i am a man with unstable and inevitable emotions, and the good way to control myself so that i wont go haywire is by imposing color teraphy.kekekkee..kononnyer la..

Nay, the reason wont be that complicated, it's juz that for me the only place that i can relax myself and reflect back what hav i been doing so far is my house..so, home sweet home is sweeter if it has the unique function of its own..

Those are not simply undies, Those are UNDIES!!!

Men's underwear
When your woman dresses up in something racy and lacy and taunts you by strutting around the room and bending over to get a reaction, she has your undivided attention, right? Well, believe it or not, women are paying attention to what's under your wear as well.

So in case you're wondering; yes, you can turn women on with your lingerie , for lack of a better word. But buyer beware, there are some serious dos and don'ts when it comes to what kind of under things you're donning.

this lackey's tacky
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Sometimes I wonder why fine department stores sell certain kinds of men's underwear. And if you've ever been in a men's locker room, you know that some guys are truly clueless when it comes to undies.
Appearance matters in today's society and what you're wearing under your Armani suit matters just as much. Even if that hot accounting executive won't be getting the goods that day, a great pair of boxers will keep you confident and ready if she decides otherwise.

Although strippers wear thongs, what do you say we leave them for the stage performers and those hot Brazilian babes? I personally believe that thongs have no place on men (unless your woman is doing a striptease and throws them at you -- but that's another story). Bikini underwear also doesn't fare well with the opposite sex. It takes away from the mystique of the "package." Granted, although there are some women who salivate when they see guys in Speedos on the beach, for the most part, that's a big no-no.

And of course, briefs. It's not that they're horrible underwear, but they do have a sort of sophomoric appeal. If you're playing "seductive older neighbor and the innocent young lad," then by all means. Otherwise, do your best not to wear briefs -- they're not good for your jewels anyway.
And up top, lest we forget those disgusting spaghetti strap tank tops that resemble a ragged piece of cloth. You know, those tops that show the nipples -- usually seen on bodybuilders. Those are unacceptable even if you're Mr. Olympia.

great underwear
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Of course, you'll never hear a woman complain about a man in boxers (unless they have holes, tears or those unsightly tracks -- you know what I'm talking about). But the thing is, boxers don't usually provide the support men need, so opt to wear them to bed at night instead. Of course, I go commando or sometimes sarong( kain pelikat) at home-which is good for air circulation..muahahhaha!!!

walkin' back into the life

it's been a long and winding journey,
and im finally here tonite,
picking up the pisces,
and walkin' back into the life....

And that's what actually happened to me now..hmm..its been a long time since i posted the last notes. Well..I am now working in TMNet as a customer service officer. Th ejob content is not that much, but one thing that we have to bear on is The Lousy Customer!!!...I do admit that sometimes TMNet itself does have problem with their system, but these people are scolding us as if we are the people who is responsible for all the problems occur...

There was this guy calling to ask 'bout his accout (acct) status. His name is Ayub(generic name..so called). When i checked his acct, i found that his act is suspended since his prepaid acct is =0, so what he can do is simply buy a reload card at TMPoint or 7-e or at e-pay, or even in certain ATM machines..

but what happened is that this bloody is such a lazy bump that he didnt even want to move his lousy but outta house and asked me(who was workin at the office) to go and buy him reload card-his would pay later on!!!..I told him that I cant do that for obvious reasons. And this despised creature get mad and started to use faul language. Well, if he is like calling to my house, i know what exactly i havo to say to him(which is definately fauly language also!!)..but since i was at the office and all our calls are recorded, i juz kept silent and apologised....Arrgghhh..god knows what it was looked like to keep everything in your heart--cam nak berdarah jerr hati aku nih!!!!!

There were other cases similar to that, but as time passed by, i realised, that thoses cases are juz part and parcel of my work tasks...and i do admit that those irate cases are juz minor, there are actually more nice customers...and even if they are angry, it's not at me-its the TMNET they are actually angry at..hecks!

Startin' a new day if life

I've signed up to ork in tmnet call centre. at the moment, i dun hav much choice..if i keep on searching for jobs without having any job at the moment, i'll be in deep trouble since im alredy out of money at the moment..so, i took mary's offer n went for an interview for tmnet custimer service officer. and now after 3 weeks stucked at the training centre, im now starting my day a a CSR in tmnet...it's quite interesting to work here..i meet new great guys n gals..fantastic frens..n learn new things-softskills, internet infos( aku bute internet sblm nih!!)...but, The thing is, i dun think that im ready to take calls from people..hehehehe..matile aku kelentong diorg nanti!!!..but still at the mean time, im still trying to find more new sound jobs..

Well..this is actually a study that relects one's self interpretation from the month one has been born based on 25 years of research.( i myself dunno whether i can believe it or not-heck..just read it...)

JANUARI
bercita-cita tinggi dan orangnya serius, suka mendidik dan dididik, sangat mudah melihat kelemahan orang dan suka mengkritik, rajin dan setiap yg dibuat nampak keuntungan, suka smart, kemas dan teratur bersifat sensitif , berfikiran mendalam, pandai mengambil hati org lain, pendiam kecuali telah dirangsang, agak pemalu, daya tumpuan yang sangat tinggi, mudah mendisiplinkan diri sendiri, badannya sihat tetapi mudah diserang selsema, bersikap romantik tetapi tidak pandai mempamirkannya, cukup sayang pd kanak-kanak, suka duduk rumah, setia pada segala-galanya, perlu belajar kemahiran sosial, cukup cemburu yg sangat tinggi
FEBRUARI
berfikiran abstrak, sukakan benda yang reality dan abstrak inteligent, bijak dan genius, berpesonality yg mudah berubah, mudah menawan org lain, agak pendiam. Pemalu dan rendah diri, jujur dan setia pd segalanya, keras hati untuk mencapai matlamat, tidak suka dikongkong, mudah memberontak apabila dikongkong, suka kegiatan yg lasak, emosinya mudah terluka dan sgt sensitif, mudah mempamirkan marahnya, tidak suka benda yg remeh-temeh, suka berkawan tapi kurang mempamerkannya, sangat berani dan suka memberontak, bercita-cita tinggi dan suke berangan-angan dan ada harapan utk merealisasikan impiannya, pemerhatian yg tajam, suka hiburan dan sukan, suka benda yg bersifat seni, sangat romantik pada dalaman tetapi tidak pada luaran, berkecenderungan pd benda yg tahyul, amat mudah dan boleh menjadi terlalu boros, belajar untuk mempamirkan emosi
MAC
berpesonaliti yg menarik dan menawan, mudah didampingi, sgt pemalu dan pemendam rasa, sgt baik secara semulajadi, jujur pemurah dan mudah simpati, sgt sensitif pd perkataan yg dituturkan dan alam persekitaran, suka pada kedamaian, sgt peka kepada orang lain, sesuai dgn kerjaya yg memberi khidmat kepada org lain, tidak cepat marah dan sangat amanah, tahu balas budi dan tahu kenang budi, pemerhatian dan penilaian yg sangat tajam, kecenderungan utk berdendam jika tidak dikawal, suka berangan-angan, suka melancong, sgt manja dan suka diberi perhatian yg sangat tinggi, kelam kabut dalam memilih pasangan, suka dgn hiasan rumahtangga, punya bakat seni dalalm bidang muzik, kecenderungan kepada benda yang istimewa dan baik, jgn terlalu moody.
APRIL
sgt aktif dan dinamik, cepat bertindak buat keputusan tetapi cepat menyesal, sgt menarik dan pandai manjakan diri, punya daya mental yg sangat kuat, suka diberi perhatian, sgt diplomatik (pandai memujuk ), berkawan dan pandai menyelesaikan masalah org, sgt berani dan tiada perasaan takut, suka adventure, pengasih, penyayang, sopan santun dan pemurah, emosi cepat terusik, try control the emotion, kecenderungan bersifat dendam, agresif, kelam kabut utk membuat keputusan, kuat daya ingatan, gerak hati yg sangat kuat, pandai mendorong diri sendiri dan memotivasikan org lain, berpenyakit disekitar kepala dan dada, sgt cemburu dan terlalu cemburu
MEI
kekerasan hati & degil, kuat semangat & bermotivasi tinggi, pemikiran yg tajam, mudah marah apabila tidak dikawal, pandai menarik hati org lain & menarik perhatian, perasaan yg amat mendalam, cantik dr segi mental & fizikal, tidak perlu dimotivasikan, tetap pendirian tetapi mudah dipengaruhi oleh org lain, mudah dipujuk, bersikap sistematik (otak kiri)suka berangan, kuat daya firasat, memahami apa yg terlintas di hati org lain tanpa diberitahu, bahagian telinga & leher mudah diserang penyakit, daya khayalan yg tinggipermikiran yg tajam, pandai berdebat, fizikal yg baik, kelemahan sistem pernafasan, suka sastera,seni & muzik serta melancong, tidak berapa suka duduk dirumah, tidak boleh duduk diam, tidak punya ramai anak, rajin dan bersemangat tinggi, agak boros

JUN
berfikiran jauh & berwawasan, mudah ditawan krn sikap baik, berperangai yg lemah lembut, mudah berubah sikap, perangaiidea @moodidea yg terlalu banyak dikepala, bersikap sensitif, otaknya aktif (sentiasa berfikir), sukar melakukan sesuatu dgn segera, bersikap suka menangguh-nangguh, bersikap terlalu memilih & mahukan yg terbaik, cepat marah &cepat sejuk, suka bercakap & berdebat, suka buat lawak & bergurau, otaknya cerdas berangan-angan, mudah berkawan & pandai berkawan, org yg sangat tertib, pandai mempamerkan sikap mudah kecil hati, mudah kena selsema, suka berkemas, cepat rasa bosan, sikap terlalu memilih & cerewet, kurang mempamerkan perasaan, lambat nak sembuh apabila terluka hati, suka kepada barang yang berjenama, mudah menjadi eksekutif, kedegilan yg tidak terkawal, sesiapa yg memuji saya adalah musuh saya tetapi siapa menegur saya adalahkawan saya.

JULAI
Sangat seronok didamping, Banyak berahsia dan sukar dimengerti terutamanya lelaki, Agak pendiam kecuali diransang, Ada harga dan maruah diri, Tak suka menyusahkan orang lain tapi tidak marah apabila disusahkanMudah dipujuk dan bercakap lurusSangat menjaga hati orang lainSangat peramahEmosi sangat mendalam tapi mudah terluka hatinyaBerjiwa sentimental jarang berdendam mudah memaafkan tapi sukar melupakan tidak suka benda remeh-temeh membimbing cara fizikal dan mental sgt peka, caring dan mengasihi serta penyayang layanan yg serupa dgn semua orang tinggi daya simpati pemerhatian yg tajamsuka menilai org lain dgn pemerhatian mudah dan rajin belajar suka muhasabah diri suka megenangkan peristiwa atau kawan lamasuka mendiamkan dirisuka duduk dirumahsuka tunggu kawan tapi tak cari kawantak agresif kecuali terpaksa lemah dari segi kesihatan perutmudah gemuk kawal tak kawal dietminta disayangimudah terluka hati tapi lambat pulihterlalu mengambil beratrajin dalam membuat kerja

OGOS
suka berlawak, mudah tertawan kepadanya, sopan santun dan caring terhadap org lain, berani dan tidak tahu takut. orgnya agak tegas & bersikap kepimpinan, pandai pujuk org lain terlalu pemurah & bersikap ego, nilai harga diri yg sangat tinggi, dahagakan pujian, semangat juang yg luar biasa. cepat marah & mudah mengamuk, mudah marah apabila cakapnya dilawan. sangat cemburu, daya pemerhatian yg tajam & teliti, cepat berfikir, fikiran yg berdikari, suka memimpin & dipimpin. sifat suka berangan, berbakat dlm seni lukis,hiburan & silat. sangat sensitif tapi tidak mudah merajuk. cepat apabila ditimpa penyakit, belajar utk relax, sikap kelam kabut, romantik ,pengasih,penyayang suka mencari kawan

SEPTEMBER
sangat bersopan santun & bertolak ansursangat cermat,teliti & teratursuka menegur kesilapan org lain & mengkritik pendiam tapi panda bercakapsikap sangat cool sangat baik & mudah simpati sangat perihatin & terperinci,amanah,setia & jujurkerja yg dilakukansangat sempurnasangat sensitif ygtidak diketahuiorg yg banyak berfikir daya pentaakulan yg baikotak bijak & mudah belajarsuka mencari maklumat kawal diri dari terlalu mengkritikpandai mendorong diri sendirimudah memahami org lain(daya firasat yg tinggi) krn banyak simpan rahsiasuka sukan,hiburan & melancongkurang menunjukan perasaannyaterluka hatinya sangat lama disimpan terlalu memilih pasangansukakan benda yg luasbersistematik

OKTOBER
suka sembang suka org yg sayang padanyasuka ambil jln tengahsangat menawan & sopan santun kecantikan luar & dalamtidak pandai berbohong & berpura-puramudah rasa simpati,baik pentingkan kawansentiasa berkawanhatinya mudah terusik tetapimerajuknya tak lamacepat marahmacam pentingkan diri sendiritidak menolong org kecuali dimintasuka melihatdari perspektifnya sendiritidak sukaterima pandangan orglainemosi yg mudah terusiksuka berangan & pandaibercakapemosi yg kelam kabutdaya firasat yg sangat kuat (terutamanya perempuan)suka melancong,bidang sastera & senipengasih ,penyayang & lemah lembut romantik dlm percintaanmudah terusik hati & cemburuambil berat tentang org lainsuka kegiatan luarorg yg adilboros & mudah dipengaruhi persekitaranmudah patah semangat

NOVEMBER (my month)
banyak idea dalam perkara, sukar utk dimengertikan atau difahami sikapnya, berfikiran kehadapan, berfikiran unik dan bijak, penuh dgn idea-idea baru yg luarbiasa, pemikiran yg tajam, daya firasat yg sgt halus dan tinggi, bagus utk jadi doktor, cermat dan teliti, personality dinamik, sifat yg berahsia, pandai mencungkil dan mencari rahsia, banyak berfikir, kurang bercakap tetapi mesra, berani, pemurah, setia dan byk kesabaran, terlalu degil dan keras hati, apabila hendak. Diusahakan sehingga berjaya, taksuka marah kecuali digugat, mudah ambil berat terhadap orang lain, pandai muhasabah diri, cara berfikir lain dari org lain, otak yg sangat tajam, pandai mendorong diri sendiri, tidak hargai pujian, kekuatan semangat dan daya juang yg sgt tinggi, dan apabila hendak sesuatu cuba sampai berjaya, badan yg tough, kasih sayang dan emosi yang sangat mendalam, romantik, tidak pasti dgn hubungan kasih sayang, suka duduk dirumah, sangat rajin dan berkemampuan tinggi, amanah, jujur setia dan pandai berahsia, tidak berapa berjaya dalam mengawal emosi, bercita-cita tinggi, perangai tidak dapat diramal dan mudah berubah-ubah

DISEMBER
Sangat setia dan pemurahBersifat patriotikSangat aktif dalam permainan dan pergaulanSikap kurang sabar dan tergesa-gesaBercita-cita tinggiSuka menjadi orang yang berpengaruh dlm organisasiSeronok didampingiSuka bercampur dgn org Suka dipuji, diberi perhatian dan suka dibelaiSangat jujur amanah dan bertolak ansurTidak pandai berpura-puraCepat marahPerangai yg berubah-ubahTidak ego walaupun harga diri yang sangat tinggiBenci pada kongkonganSuka berlawakPandai buat lawak dan berfikiran dgn logik

seorang lelaki

seorang lelaki
jatuh bangunnya kerana seorang wanita
bukan sejati

seorang lelaki
mengharap bulan jatuh terletak di riba;
biarkan dia menanti

seorang lelaki
menangis di hati, menyorok isinya
bukan penakut mati

seorang lelaki
berhubung dengan dunia
terikat dengan akhirat
berjanji dengan mati

menjadi lelaki
bukan berlagak ngeri
bukan membuta tuli
tidak membangga diri
tapi mengaku kelemahan sendiri
kebesaran Ilahi

what am i doing???

Relax, dont panic. It's still me, Kast-the same person who really likes to go shopping..chatting n lepak wif people n plus additional feature-IM BROKE!..im so broke that i hav to work as a sales associate in one of KLCC shop...
But at least GOD did answer my pray-although He didnt really give me 'seGEDEBUK' money, he showed please a way how to get 'em! so people..i i didn't really hav time to update this blog..dun blame me ok..altough i think i did d same when i didnt get any job...hehehehehe!..okla..till then..

"life is so short that it couldt be measured by length nor its to light than we couldt even weight it!-still it can be enriched by love n tenderness"

gettin' older n useless????

well..for those who wonder what am i doin' now..im now jobless(jus finis study) and doin' nothing..pening kapla!!!!!..hehheee..and beside that, apparently all(most) my cousins are one-by-one gettin' engage and married...n i knew one day, the golden question will be smacked on my face-when will i introduce us my galfren?????

WHEN???..how in the world can i do that when dun even hav anyone sticks wif me..i broke wif my ex gal..hav no wat-so-ever preseverance to search for one at the same time!!!..ontop of it, i sun hav a single cents in my wallet..

hush now..okay....i know, i'll kidnap osama n redeem for reward from bush or;
i could do vice versa..hahahahhahahaa!!!

okla aku dah start mengarut...chows!!
bubbye

O’ happy day!!!

It’s hard to say what’s happening to us is something happy or not-and to what extend that particular thing is ‘a’ happy thing or not…..don’t believe it???
Well, when I was relaxing and indulging myself with watchin’ my favourite Chinese drama series, ‘square pegs’; my bro-in law asked me to buy him express bus ticket. And pastu, zuhadi called me up ajak aku gi KLIA hantar Mia g German..lgpun Arep pun nk ikut..I agreed..without knowin, that something will come up later…
I waited for Zuhadi at Jelatek LRT Putra Station..and after sometimes, he came and told me that Arep tak jd dtg….I knew it already bcoz I had already called Arep n he said that Mia had told(or wanted to tell) Zuhadi tak payah gi KLIA sbb die pun gi ngn KLIA Transit jer n better hantar duit dier yg zuhadi pinjam kat umh jer kan..
Since Arep pun tak dtg and Zuhadi pun seemed like havin another plan that was to go to Nini’s(Zuhadi’s fren who we mistakenly took her as Zuhadi gf) house(to get sumthin’). When we arrived at her house..but she wasn’t there( she was in Klang)..so I guess u know what we did-went there!
Along the way we talked bout our planning-Zuhadi get a job at AIA-congrats to him!!!..but me????..no what-so-ever plan yet!..we chatted..chat..chat..and then…..Gek..Gek…Gekk!..
We heard an awkward sound as we were passing a tol plaza…Then we realized that..THE RIGHT BACK TYRE HAD PUNCTURED!!!
IT took us almost an hour or so to change it!..we looked around for a car jack..but it was juz not there..luckily there was another car who broke down a long the road..so Zuhadi went and asked’em for that eject thingy..dunno what it called….Baru separuh gune benda alah tu..owner dia ckp yg kembara (keta abg Zuhadi) selalunye letak eject kat co-pilot punyer place..then we found it..hahahaha..tp punye le payah nk gune.sampai patah screw-driver yg Zuhadi gune!!..siap bleeding lg tangan die..kesian siot!!!
Last skali kitorg tukar tempat nk eject tuh..barulerr terangkat keta tuh!!!(hey..dun blame me!!!..i know nothin’ bout cars ok!)..we tought the ordeal was over, but nahhh!!!!..misery was so sad and tak sampai hat ink leave kitorg!!....Sampai nk mampus kitorg try nk bukak screw tayar yg pancit tu..tak gak bukak2!!!..then I went to the plaza tol and asked for peronda highway..pastu bl dh gi kat kat keta balik..barulerr ble bukak tayar pancit tuh!!!..AKHIRNYA!!!!!
So we continued our journey in meeting Nini n took her n Hazani(her fren) back to her house (Klang is where she’s havin her practicum). And I arrived home at almost 2a.m.
Well..why am I tellin’ this???...hahahha..you may think it was a terrible ordeal..bad experience..pengalaman pahit..but nahhh..i found it was very interesting, becoz we really had a good time—becoz if I were not there..Zuhadi will hav to face the prob alone and I was surely gonna be boring and depressing !!..i admit I didn’t do nothing much..but at least I was there to accompany him n jd penghibur tidak rasmi!..and if I didn’t go out wif him..i’d never face that kind of situation-b4 this..i never experienced tayar pancit!! hehehhee…
"And you know what????...i got it all in my digicam !"

The Ordeal in PERKESO????

Hehehehheee..first and foremost...thousands apology for i hav almost abandoned this blog for sumtimes..bukan luper cumer takder masa...
At the moment, im still doing my practicum in PERKESO-and actually we hav one practical student from UPM who's doin' Consumer Science...well basically, we call her Ayam despite of his name Wani which has nottin to do wif chicken-it's juz a name we call when she started to be a bit ekstrovert..hahahhahaa!!!!
BTW, she is one of the "tokan" vcd and DVD ..supply mostly korean movies and Anime..but tonite im not talkin bout her..so get rid of her for a sec....WE R TALkIN BOUT THE FOUL MANAGEMENT IN PERKESO!!
----because u know what??????..up until now..i havent got my needed data yet!!!!!
Im basically finishing my practicum this cumin' week but stilll....huhh!!!..for the note, im doin a one stop centre simulation system, and since my "bahagian so called Pengurusan" doent not cover that bloody one stop centre, i had to do sum bloody proposal and then wait for my big butt boss to validate it(in which she took almost 3 weeks) and the sent my proposal to "Bahagian Cawangan kl" since they r handling that side...in which they took about one bloody whole month to send me back the agreement letter!!!!...and now..im trembling alone...counting my days there in PerkOSA..and crossing my fingers hoping that i cud get the data on time!!!!...
and as the mean time, im just doin sum mailin' stuff and shakin' my legs there!!!-if others are like rushing their whole life to do countless assignments..projects...ME???-who knows???

where art thou??..my PERKESO

hello guys, wassup?..how's the holidays' goin???..
Well basically, i'm a bit busy with ma practicum thingy, actuall i only do sum filing but it is really exhausting!! (dunno y). nothing much happened actually, everyday i will at least snd sms to anybody asking what r they doin', juz makin sure thatthey r not forgetting me!!..hahaha!!
lets talk 'bout am i doin there in PERKESO. I was placed in there to do my practicum in completing my degree requirement..so here i am, wake at 7 a.m. and had to walk from Jelatek LRT station to PERKESO Jln Ampang..and i always reach there soakin' wet!!..well..a job is a job!
During the 1stday, i have already gotten my 1st punchcard merah!!..but as for the next day onward..no more larrr!!!..(hope so)..so every day five of us (i and awie(hasbullah nawawi, bob(azmanan-comm stud) and zu(zufadzhilatul huzni-comm stud cum ms knows everythin') will sit around a table and start the filing process-starting from folding it to the end..what i know is that we do it better and faster than kerani fail kat situ..
Hehhee..see im starting t mengumpat 'em..but thats the truth!!-it's maybe they have been doin it since forever..that's y they r having degredation of motivation(i think-takin it from a personwho always ponteng OB class)
Only after a week i met a person who really understand when i talk about forecasting, simulations, and OR-the quality manager..yang lain including the operation manager..hampeh!!!!
The prob is the quality department has just being created 3 years ago, so there is no watsoever data bout quality thingy-as so they said lorrr..so they r organizing a project to do MPK(manual prosedur kerja)..only the the asessment can be done..so!!!!!..huhh...that is when i remembered about forecasting..so the final proprositin is a simulation of the counters in perkeso!!
BTW, Awie's gona do kajian kepuasan pelanggan in perkeso...
okla..im using the money that my bro's in law gave to type his work, so better get off now..
chow!!!!