Friday, March 24, 2006

To worry or not TOO worry???

Starting my shift at 3pm, i got sumfree time to chat in YM and checked my emails and all that. Suddenly, i got this msg from an important person saying that this person's health was not at the best state..n i felt so worried...

And again, after a few conversation with this person, i realised that; by worrying too much, i was not only creating a destructive condition, rather putting much pressure to the person...You see, when u feel worry for someone, it shows that that perticular person is important for you..and telling that person how inportant that person is to you indirectly indicates to that person that that person has to bear such a big responsibility as an important person for you...

In a nutshell, being an important person is not only a privillage but rather a responsibility-one new lesson that i'll never forget!!!


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[15:43] s***: : syg
[15:43] s***: i dah balik umah
[15:43] s***: not feeling well
[15:43] s***: i xnak buat u risau
[15:43] s***: pls jgn risau
[15:43] s***: i nak mkn ubat ni
[15:43] s***: sok g jupe my specialist...ive md n appointment
[15:44] kasthata: syg???
.[15:47] s***: syg
[15:47] s***: pls jgn risau
[15:47] s***: i kat toilet td masa u call..i mandi n rfreshen up
[15:47] kasthata: syg.....
[15:48] kasthata: i x sedap ati...
[15:48] kasthata: :(
[15:48] kasthata: sian u...
[15:48] s***: dun worry
[15:48] s***: please?
[15:48] s***: jgnla risau
[15:48] s***: i tau apa i perlu buat
[15:48] kasthata: i terkejut sgt2 tetiba u anta msg td
[15:48]s***: sbb tu i mintak kebenaran bos i 2 balik awal sbb nak g klinik
[15:49] s***: jgnle camtu
[15:49] s***: u ni..
i[15:49] kasthata: am worry for u...
[15:49] s***: thx 4 the concern
[15:49] s***: i really appreciate it
[15:49]s***: sian u..sampai abis kredit call i td
[15:49] s***: u tau tak u amat penting 4 me..
[15:49] s***: sori sgt
[15:50] kasthata: i cant help myself..thinkin bout u..
[15:50] s***: jgnla ckp camtu
[15:50] kasthata: its ok..
[15:50] s***: u buat i rs bersalah
[15:50] kasthata: u tak wat salah pun..
[15:50] s***: im not all tht
[15:50] kasthata: nape u nak rasa bersalah plak
[15:51] kasthata: ur not all wut??
[15:51] s***: yela..sbb i tlh buat sesuatu yg membuatkan u anggap i important
[15:51] kasthata: ??
[15:51] s***: maksudnya...i bukanlah baik or terbagus
[15:51] kasthata: it doesnt matter syg
[15:51] s***: mungkin ada yg lebih baik buat u kat luar tu
[15:52] kasthata: syg..nape u ckp macam ni?
[15:52] kasthata:
[15:52] s***: pls jgn salah fhm
[15:52] kasthata: smlm u x suke i ckp mcm ni..skg u plak yg ckp
[15:52] kasthata:
[15:52] s***: i hargai the way u treat me..as in im important to u
[15:53] s***: tp pls dont put me as the most important thing in ur life
[15:53] kasthata: bcoz u r sayang..
[15:53] s***: if u do...besar tanggungjawab
[15:53] kasthata: u x suke takpela
[15:53] kasthata: its k
[15:53] s***: bukan i xsuka
[15:53] s***: im really flattered.
[15:53] kasthata: no..its k...
[15:53] s***: cuma i belum buktikan n belum layak utk jd the most important thing 2u just yet
[15:53] s***: pls undestand
[15:53] kasthata: ok...
.[15:54] s***: syg...i tau ur mind is clouded rite now
[15:54] s***: confused
[15:54]s***: lagi2 selepas dgr i ckp camni
[15:55] s***: i teringin nak jadi important 2u....tp buat masa skang i rs i kene usaha lebih utk dptkan title tu
[15:55] s***: syg
[15:55] s***: u ok ?
[15:55] s***: syg
[15:55] kasthata: syg...
[15:55] s***: ye
[15:56] kasthata: sorry..
[15:56] s***: napa sorry?
[15:57] kasthata: i buat u rasa tertekan..sbb like u...i pon berusaha keras nak jd org yg important dlm hidup u...
[15:57] s***: its ok
[15:57] s***: i betul2 appreciate wht u r doin
[15:57] s***: segala usaha u i appreciate
[15:58] kasthata: thnx..
[15:58] kasthata: i pon sama....

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Those were some part of our conversation...when i went through back all of our conversation..i noticed that perhaps, i did put some pressure to the air..and for that, my dear am sorry!!!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Interesting.I have a producer friend that I can talk into making a short story based on ur conversation..a story about insecurities and expectations.what is ur biggest fear kast?

Efarojie said...

well, its not finish until the fat lady sings..still have sum conversations that i've censored-privacy matters..my biggest fear is losing sumone who i admire most.dear to that sumone:dun lose hope in me!!