Thursday, April 27, 2006


Its been for quite sumtimes i didnt update my blog aite???..ish..teruk btol aku nih!!!

Well for a start let me juz tell that i didnt get the job at KRU since they didnt want to fork up more money to hire an admin, and so they are putting all those abundance jobs at Ted.

2ndly, there were certain occasions happened which i havent got time to jot it down here..(sigh~)

3rdly, hmm...let me juz list down wut i've been doin so far chronologically:

Tell you wut, why cant we juz let bygones be bygones..and start a new life????..

But tonite, there's gona be a launching at MTQ due to its grand opening, access fee is rm20, and the theme is pink n' black!!..but i dun think am goin' since Froggy has some stuff to do..but froggy's workin on it so that all the stuff will be settled and we can go and hav fun there..

Still, no biggie bout it in case we didnt have chance to go there tonite..there will always be some other time ;)

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

the interview

the interview

Yesterday(25.4.06) i went for an interview at KRUComm. The interview went good..i guess. Interviewed by Bard Indigo, he offered me rm1.5K, well..i didnt wana sound demanding, but im sorta in financial crises now. So i'd love to hav at least a basic of rm1.7K..Still, it's not confirm yet that am gona get that job or, let it be in God's hands.

Today, I hav this QA(Quality Assurance) assesment in TMNet, it's sum kinda exam that i have to sit to get promoted to QA..As much as i hate to work in TMNet, I need this post as a backup.

Well, I do need to grab every opportunity dont I?

Sunday, April 23, 2006

the talk

the talk

At last, we have succesfully managed to get through the obstacle together...and tell you the truth, it was not that easy.

At 1st, my heart sunk; i got so hurt that i just couldnt feel anythin' nemore. I couldnt feel anythin'-dissapointed, feelin' of missin sumone, sad and so forth. I felt so restless that i almost lost my passion over the relationship

I dont want to lose it, god forbid. but i was so blue at that time. Froggy and i had sum discussion via YM; the atmosphere was hot with the idea of pullin back the relationship to its early stage when froggy brought up the idea of goin' slow.

then, we met and discussed about it face to face. While havin' meals, Froggy told me that some of the friends know that we are an item. Feelinglessly, i keep on eating after hearing him saying that. that's bcoz i just dunno whut to feel, how to show it anymore after whut has happened. froggy felt so disappointed when i didnt give a damn bout it at all-not shocked, happy sad or excited.Deep in my heart, i wish hard i know how i wana show my feeling, it sanked deep in my heart.Then i proposed that we go to a place where we could talk privately.

After couples of arguments, we agreed on certain things:
1. we still gona be an item
2. we still in love with each other
3. we gona take it slowly-cherish the time we'r havin' and not thinkin big
4. less sex
5. less bunkin in at each other's place
6. more time spending together outside d house
7. froggy's gona gimme some time to get my passion back
8. froggy's gona push his fear a side and embrace love
9. i'll treat froggy as how i treat froggy b4
10.we agreed that we gona go for our honeymoon one day

Well, it seems that now, everythin' falls on its place back and am startin' to feel the passion one again..

Will love conquer it all???

..that depends...

Saturday, April 15, 2006

biarla rahsia?

biarlah rahsia-siti nurhaliza

Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika
berada di tempat ku
membayangkan pahit manis berlaku
tiada siapa yang tahu
mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan

berdepan dengan kata menyesatkan
tak kan kutiada pertimbangan

**keheningan malam membalutkan

kepayahan jiwa meluahk
anandai kau jujur memahami
tiadaku menjauhi

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang

menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantasku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsia
semakin aku hitung dalam cinta

tiada kuasa mampu menghalangnya
hentikan kata-kata bertulangkan dusta

**keheningan malam membalutkan

kepayahan jiwa meluahkan
andai kau jujur memahami
tiada ku menjauhi

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang

menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantas ku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsiaoooooo

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang

menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantas ku pendam ku putuskanbiarlah rahsia
pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika

berada di tempat ku....

istana pasir impian????

Pedihnya tuhan yang tahu, tatkala membina istana pasir yang disangkakan kukuh,???? memerlukan hanya sekali pukulan ombak yang memghempas dan semuanya hancur berkecai di kala kita menyangkakan istana pasir hampir siap dibina...pembinaan harus dimulakan sekali lagi...pengumpulan pasir di pantai, mengayak pasir dari batu2 kasar, pembentukan istana yang lebih kukuh..semuanya boleh dijalankan semula..
Persoalannya, terdetik dalam hati sang pembina yang seperti mana usibah yang berlaku sekarang..istana pasir yang baru ada potensinya untuk dihempas ombak yang menggila semula..lagi....lagi..lagi..dan lagi...
Dan di manakah keyakinannya sang pembina hendak dipahatkan??..pada kontraktor yang penuh was-was atau dirinya..hati yang penuh luka dek kemusnahan istana pasir...kekhuatirannya terhadap istana pasir yang bakal dibina...
Terdetik pada hati sang pembina, mungkin sudah nasibnya...mungkin sudah takdirnya..risiko membina sebuah istana pasir yang penuh dengan igauan..yg sebelumnya menjadi idaman...
Adakah dia patut menyerah kalah...berhenti untuk membina, dan mengusahakan sesuatu yang lain pula..atau dia patut terus membina dengan harapan istana yang kedua lebih kukuh dari sebelumnya..ataupun....berhenti..dan terus mati???

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Migraine attacks

Today starts with a good day..i woke up early, did my subuh prayers and then went for my morning jog....An hour later, i headed for the nearest kedai mamak and had my breakfast tea there while reading ''Faghag'', a novel borrowed from androi8. am still struggling to finish reading it..kekekkeee...

After havin my quiet time sittin alone there in kedai mamak, i headed home( my fren's house, since im staying in his house this whole week as am havin my afternoon shift which finishes at 12pm) and watch Oprah. Then i decided to take a short nap; i normally do that after doing some exercises.

When i woke up, i had this major headache...have not had it for quite sometimes. I tought it was just for a short while and so i headed for shower, lunch and went to work..

After 2 hours bustling with the customers, i decided to take MC since i just couldnt bear it anymore..this migraine is killing me!

Monday, April 03, 2006

What ur name means......... check it out !!

What ur name means......... check it out !!

Instructions : What you do is find out what each letter of your name means.

Then connect all the meanings and it describes YOU. (Its TRUE) &(Is'ntit GREAT !!)

If you have double or triple letters, just count the meaning once.For Example : MARK

M - Success comes easily to you.
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
R - You are a social butterfly.
K - You like to try new things.

A = You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B = You are always cautious when it comes to meeting newpeople.
C = You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
D = You have trouble trusting people.
E =You are a very exciting person.
F = Everyone loves you.
G = You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H =You are not judgmental.
I =You are always smiling and making others smile.
J =Jealously
K =You like to try new things.
L = Love is something you deeply believe in.
M = Success comes easily to you.
N = You like to work, but you always want a break.
O = You are very open-minded.
P =You are very friendly and understanding.
Q = You are a hypocrite.
R =You are a social butterfly.
S = You are very broad-minded.
T = You have an attitude, a big one
.U = You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V = You have a very good physique and looks.
W = You like your privacy.
X = You never let people tell you what to do.
Y = You cause a lot of trouble.
Z = You're always fighting with someone.


Love or hate???

i love it but i hate it.

i love it when u make me smile but i hate it when u make me cry.i love it when u tell me how much u love me but i hate it when u act like u dont care.i love it when u say sorry but i hate it when u do the same mistake again.i love it when thinking about u eases the pain but i hate it not knowing whether u do feel the same..i love it when i just love everything about u but i hate it when i cant hate u...

not even a bit.not even close.not even a little.not even at all..."

_________________________________________courtesy from shamir

Yeah..yeah a copycat..Say wutever u wana say, call me wutever u may but as i read his writing...there was only one thing that i wanna say; " been there, done that" .

One thing that i know, those words remind me of wut am feeling rite now...rather deeper...and hating the person whom we admire most is impossible...not even in our dictionary of mind~believe me..its true!!!

p/s: dear to sumone, glad that we've been talkin things out..glad that i've met u...