Melepak!!!

Sejak dua menjak ni, dah lama aku tak melepak ngan kawan2 aku...itu bukan bermaksud aku lupe langsung dengan korang sume, cume kebelakangan ni..banyak sangat masalah yang melanda kehidupan aku..banyak yang harus difikirkan...banyak yang harus diuruskan..banyak yang harus diselesaikan...

Dan orang yang sangat-sangat memahami keadaan ini adalah froggy. Thanks so much dear for being so supportive. Its not that all of yer guys (my friends) are not helping me..but at this moment, he knows more since we kinda experiencing similar situation here..

Yet, problems are problems. They will not fade away, if you just stare.
You have to solve them, yet problem solving is not that easy...
So, besides solving them, at times, you juz need to go and lepak with yer friends!!!

hahahaa..itu sebenarnya yang aku nak cakap...so dah dua hari aku dok pegi melepak ngan Ted, Faz and Akak Anim (*lariiiiii). It's good to meet and lepak with yer all after a while i've been strugling with ma family matters and probs. S0, semalam kitorang (Faz, Ted and me) pegi window shop kejap kat KLCC..Then NAim picked us up, and we went for dinner...

we borak2 sampai dlm pkol 10mlm...mencarut sesama sendiri...It was fun though, doin' all that..hehehee..

So guys, thanks for the wonderful nite u guy have spent wif me..

mmuahhhs!!!!!

Weekend on weekdays

This weekend was an exquisite weekend, and u know why?-mine started early than other workin' people! This weekend, my off days were on Thursday and Friday-two days before the real weekend :P

Well, call me bangla or wutever (for workin on weekend)...im still glad that eventhough froggy worked on that Friday, despite all of the hectic day he faced, froggy cycled all the way from his house to SJ Carrefour to meet me.

I bunked in froggy's place that nite... (drum rolls...)

The next day, when all creatures were having their sleep~as it was Saturday morning, i woke up early just because i need to GO TO WORK!!!

During that Saturday evening, i went online (my part-time job in office) with froggy who was in his house of course. Later we agreed to watch Over The Hedge.

Over The Hedge is an animation adapted from a comic; Over the Hedge, created by Michael Fry and T Lewis. It takes a freshly skewed look at suburban living from the perspective of the animals who lived there first. The story began when RJ, a mischevious raccoon stole a bear's food and due to its greediness, all the food fell down the steep hill and off to the road and BAM!!!!!...crashed by a lorry yang melalu jalan tuh.

The bottomline is, RJ must seek for the same food he stole from Vincent the bear before fullmoon or he'll be eaten alive!...That was when he started his journey in searchin for the same food he stole, and how he met Verne, a wise tortoise and his family of possum mouse, hedgehog and squirrel and together; they formed a trap-proof- food -searchin' team! Did they manage to steal food from the human?Did Verne and his family knows 'bout RJ's dark secret? That, one needs to watch it by oneself :P~

Then, the nite was gettin' older..and older..
Froogy and me lepak2 kejap and balik to our own place...
Thanks so much Bucuk for spending yer time with me..I had a great time with you...
(***matilaa kena carots jiwang katanya!!!)

What is love????

I was onced, crying over a guy, who never even botherED whether I was alived or not,
I was onced, giving out all my money for a guy who never even bothered whether i have eaten or not;
I was onced,having my endless night thinking about a guy,while he was sleeping soundly;
and i thought, "this is love; hurting and depressing.."

...YET I KEPT ON DOIN D SAME THING

..but tasya said,"ko, kalau dah jatuh cinta lupe dunia".

mak cakap," kalu time belajaq, tak payah la dok menggatai nak bercinta-cinta nie, nanti rosak pelajaran".

What is love????

spingermorks said, "Love could be a summer, a damn hot summer that would make me in flame. Love could be winter, a damn cold winter which killing me silently inside and put me to sleep without me knowing it. Last year I found out that life was never a life without love, and I was so stupid to define love of two persons, shared by two, only by two. but, last year, to contradict I later figured out that love was no larger than life if one didnt know how to love oneself. How could one love others when one didn't even know where to draw the line of respect and love himself?"
(matila i pon conpius)

Froggy said, "Love to me is very sacred....it shouldn't be abused or confused with sex."

for me, love is everything. love is like chocolate; the sweet taste melts in your mouth (this is where we get sweet words come from), deliciously irresistable yet fattening and to d worst case scenario, u'll get diabetic. (*matila ko britney spears yg suke orgasm mkn coklat)

yes, love is devine..but we human tends to misused it and call having sex (1 to 1 , 3sum and orgy) as making love too; thus deriving the real meaning of the 'devine ' itself to love.

yes, love can appear before us without being notice unti one we love has gone.

Love can come in different shapes, heights, weights, ages....but people tend to misused it for their preferences.
(*matile bebudak chat yg dok sibuk nk tengok stats orang!!)

Love is when u sacrifice urself without making urself a stupid guy. People tend to sacrifice everything for one they love..giving all they have, yet at the end when love is not in the air.....he lost everything including himself!-believe me, if one u love, loves u as much s u love him, the last thing he would one is for you to sacrifice urself..if he asks that,darn him; for love is to give, not to be asked for!

'for he who asks should be thrown into the dungeon'

-matila mane2 kitab aku pakai!

Anyway, s much s we (froggy n i) dun celebrate valentine's day, i hope that everybody , especially to all of my frens; may you guys meet the guy who will love u; and may the love will be cherished to the max!

p/s: if u guys could recall, it is on this date, i wrote a post in a distressful manner showing how lonely i was. Alhamdulillah, the rain has gone; although it's not for forever but the silver lining that appears is enough to make me feel livelier!

-to abg masyam, happy valentine's day( yeah2 i know x elok sambut..dose..i x sambut;sebut jer.. :-P)

-to egha, Ted,faz, isis,andy, sheera,aiman, muja, paranoi8,izuan,ben, musang,muja and others; may love sets u free !!!

He is the one

He is the one

He's the 1st child,

He knows how to make me smile,

He holds me in his muscled arms

He always keeps me warm

He is now the man of the house.

He Cleanses.

He cooks.

He draws.

He cycles.

He has this sweet goofy face

He oftens called garfield

He oftens called JLo

He has all the features of both names

He is the one I admire

He makes my heart skips a beat

He is my love

It is him; the one I desire...

saya rindu awak

saya rindu awak
rindu senyuman awak
penawar kesedihan saya

saya rindu awak
rindu gelak tawa awak
yg menggegarkan hati saya
yg sememangkan dambakan kegembiraan



saya rindu awak
rindu muka goofy awak
buat saya leka akan segalanya
peghibur di kala lara...



saya rindu awak
rindu suara besar awak
yg sesekali menyanyikan lagu
pendodoi waktu tidur saya...

saya rindu awak
rindu masakan awak
terasa di bibir ini
self saucing choc pudding;
butterscotch..

saya rindu awak...
rindu pelukan awak..
hangat suam badan awak
penenang hati ini

saya rindu awak
rindu bau awak..
yg menusuk terus ke hati saya...
membuat kan saya angau
walaupun awak tiada di sisi

saya rindu awak
rindu yg masih ditahan...
takut tertumpah ke tanah
bersia ke lantai..

saya rindu awak
rindu awak...
sebab awak adalah awak
cinta hati saya..
penawar racun saya
mr froggy saya
bucuk saya
cayang saya..
hubby saya..

awak rindu saya?

the weekend

this weekend, i didnt do much. woke up abit late (missed my subuh :P), and did some house chores (if washing my own dishes after breakfast can be considered as one); and watched cartoons with the lil' devils of the house (my niece n nephew).

Later after that, i called up Froggy and set our date of the day. Since froggy has to settle certain stuff, will be coming quite late, I called up hantuAlex to join me at KlCC, and also Ted to lepak2 with me. I was planning to watch movie, but yikes, the queues were heaven long that we than decided to look for Faz's birthday present. By the way, Faz is celebrating his 23th birthday today (7th May 2006).

Hantu left after a while when his 'petBrother' came~~petbro ke scandal???..hahhahaaa!!!

Ted and me were climbing up and down KlCC to find B' day gift for Faz, and at last we decided to get him a fuzzy huggable teddy bear from Asiana~(sesuai la ngn kakak faz)

Later, Ted headed for the gym, and i continue waiting for froggy at Kinokuniya while reading Shopaholic and Sis written by Sophie Kinsella.

Then after an hour, Froggy came-how i missed froggy so much..even more rite now~~

Then Ted called, saying that ben wana meet us (or meet only him??-matila ted). Along with Ben, was his mom, Ron and Ikhsan. After saying hye and bye, Ted And HantuAlex headed back to each others' place while Mr Froggy and I went to Jusco to look for something, some important thing (at least to us).

We then decided to give it sometimes before we buy that something, and headed for supermarket since froggy wanna make dinner~(well, i dunno how to cook, malanglah awak dapat saya; suami yg xreti masak :P)

Bunkin' in my place, Froggy made this fusion yee mee with blackpaper sausages, Tom Yum Flavoured fish cakes, Bak Choy and fish balls. Perrgghhhh, mertua lalu confirm tak perasan!!!

A couple of friends were asking me to join 'em in MTQ, but i've decided not to since I wana spend more time with Froggy, becaused the next day, Froggy has to leave early since there are things to be done. Furthermore, we dont really have time for each other that much besides weekend. So iwould love to spend the precious time with Froggy...

Yer All would say my weekend is kinda cheesy, but insyaallah..wutever for you dear...
mmuahhhhh!!!

***Over la pulak..matila...mati!!!

p/s: Happy birthday to Fazliana Puqueimawaty Jubouriya~~kekekkee

opsss!!!

Its been for quite sumtimes i didnt update my blog aite???..ish..teruk btol aku nih!!!

Well for a start let me juz tell that i didnt get the job at KRU since they didnt want to fork up more money to hire an admin, and so they are putting all those abundance jobs at Ted.

2ndly, there were certain occasions happened which i havent got time to jot it down here..(sigh~)

3rdly, hmm...let me juz list down wut i've been doin so far chronologically:

Tell you wut, why cant we juz let bygones be bygones..and start a new life????..



But tonite, there's gona be a launching at MTQ due to its grand opening, access fee is rm20, and the theme is pink n' black!!..but i dun think am goin' since Froggy has some stuff to do..but froggy's workin on it so that all the stuff will be settled and we can go and hav fun there..

Still, no biggie bout it in case we didnt have chance to go there tonite..there will always be some other time ;)

the interview

the interview

Yesterday(25.4.06) i went for an interview at KRUComm. The interview went good..i guess. Interviewed by Bard Indigo, he offered me rm1.5K, well..i didnt wana sound demanding, but im sorta in financial crises now. So i'd love to hav at least a basic of rm1.7K..Still, it's not confirm yet that am gona get that job or wut..so, let it be in God's hands.

Today, I hav this QA(Quality Assurance) assesment in TMNet, it's sum kinda exam that i have to sit to get promoted to QA..As much as i hate to work in TMNet, I need this post as a backup.

Well, I do need to grab every opportunity dont I?

the talk

the talk

At last, we have succesfully managed to get through the obstacle together...and tell you the truth, it was not that easy.

At 1st, my heart sunk; i got so hurt that i just couldnt feel anythin' nemore. I couldnt feel anythin'-dissapointed, feelin' of missin sumone, sad and so forth. I felt so restless that i almost lost my passion over the relationship

I dont want to lose it, god forbid. but i was so blue at that time. Froggy and i had sum discussion via YM; the atmosphere was hot with the idea of pullin back the relationship to its early stage when froggy brought up the idea of goin' slow.

then, we met and discussed about it face to face. While havin' meals, Froggy told me that some of the friends know that we are an item. Feelinglessly, i keep on eating after hearing him saying that. that's bcoz i just dunno whut to feel, how to show it anymore after whut has happened. froggy felt so disappointed when i didnt give a damn bout it at all-not shocked, happy sad or excited.Deep in my heart, i wish hard i know how i wana show my feeling, it sanked deep in my heart.Then i proposed that we go to a place where we could talk privately.

After couples of arguments, we agreed on certain things:
1. we still gona be an item
2. we still in love with each other
3. we gona take it slowly-cherish the time we'r havin' and not thinkin big
4. less sex
5. less bunkin in at each other's place
6. more time spending together outside d house
7. froggy's gona gimme some time to get my passion back
8. froggy's gona push his fear a side and embrace love
9. i'll treat froggy as how i treat froggy b4
10.we agreed that we gona go for our honeymoon one day

Well, it seems that now, everythin' falls on its place back and am startin' to feel the passion one again..

Will love conquer it all???

..that depends...

biarla rahsia?

biarlah rahsia-siti nurhaliza

Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika
berada di tempat ku
membayangkan pahit manis berlaku
tiada siapa yang tahu
mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan
berdepan dengan kata menyesatkan
tak kan kutiada pertimbangan

**keheningan malam membalutkan
kepayahan jiwa meluahk
anandai kau jujur memahami
tiadaku menjauhi

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang
menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantasku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsia
semakin aku hitung dalam cinta
tiada kuasa mampu menghalangnya
hentikan kata-kata bertulangkan dusta

**keheningan malam membalutkan
kepayahan jiwa meluahkan
andai kau jujur memahami
tiada ku menjauhi

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang
menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantas ku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsiaoooooo

***dan kisahku yang masih panjang
menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantas ku pendam ku putuskanbiarlah rahsia
pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika
berada di tempat ku....

istana pasir impian????

Pedihnya tuhan yang tahu, tatkala membina istana pasir yang disangkakan kukuh,???? memerlukan hanya sekali pukulan ombak yang memghempas dan semuanya hancur berkecai di kala kita menyangkakan istana pasir hampir siap dibina...pembinaan harus dimulakan sekali lagi...pengumpulan pasir di pantai, mengayak pasir dari batu2 kasar, pembentukan istana yang lebih kukuh..semuanya boleh dijalankan semula..
Persoalannya, terdetik dalam hati sang pembina yang seperti mana usibah yang berlaku sekarang..istana pasir yang baru ada potensinya untuk dihempas ombak yang menggila semula..lagi....lagi..lagi..dan lagi...
Dan di manakah keyakinannya sang pembina hendak dipahatkan??..pada kontraktor yang penuh was-was atau dirinya..hati yang penuh luka dek kemusnahan istana pasir...kekhuatirannya terhadap istana pasir yang bakal dibina...
Terdetik pada hati sang pembina, mungkin sudah nasibnya...mungkin sudah takdirnya..risiko membina sebuah istana pasir yang penuh dengan igauan..yg sebelumnya menjadi idaman...
Adakah dia patut menyerah kalah...berhenti untuk membina, dan mengusahakan sesuatu yang lain pula..atau dia patut terus membina dengan harapan istana yang kedua lebih kukuh dari sebelumnya..ataupun....berhenti..dan terus mati???

Migraine attacks

Today starts with a good day..i woke up early, did my subuh prayers and then went for my morning jog....An hour later, i headed for the nearest kedai mamak and had my breakfast tea there while reading ''Faghag'', a novel borrowed from androi8. am still struggling to finish reading it..kekekkeee...

After havin my quiet time sittin alone there in kedai mamak, i headed home( my fren's house, since im staying in his house this whole week as am havin my afternoon shift which finishes at 12pm) and watch Oprah. Then i decided to take a short nap; i normally do that after doing some exercises.

When i woke up, i had this major headache...have not had it for quite sometimes. I tought it was just for a short while and so i headed for shower, lunch and went to work..

After 2 hours bustling with the customers, i decided to take MC since i just couldnt bear it anymore..this migraine is killing me!

What ur name means......... check it out !!

What ur name means......... check it out !!

Instructions : What you do is find out what each letter of your name means.

Then connect all the meanings and it describes YOU. (Its TRUE) &(Is'ntit GREAT !!)

If you have double or triple letters, just count the meaning once.For Example : MARK

M - Success comes easily to you.
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
R - You are a social butterfly.
K - You like to try new things.

A = You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B = You are always cautious when it comes to meeting newpeople.
C = You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
D = You have trouble trusting people.
E =You are a very exciting person.
F = Everyone loves you.
G = You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H =You are not judgmental.
I =You are always smiling and making others smile.
J =Jealously
K =You like to try new things.
L = Love is something you deeply believe in.
M = Success comes easily to you.
N = You like to work, but you always want a break.
O = You are very open-minded.
P =You are very friendly and understanding.
Q = You are a hypocrite.
R =You are a social butterfly.
S = You are very broad-minded.
T = You have an attitude, a big one
.U = You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V = You have a very good physique and looks.
W = You like your privacy.
X = You never let people tell you what to do.
Y = You cause a lot of trouble.
Z = You're always fighting with someone.

CHECK YOUR NAME MEANING

Love or hate???

"
i love it but i hate it.
i love it when u make me smile but i hate it when u make me cry.i love it when u tell me how much u love me but i hate it when u act like u dont care.i love it when u say sorry but i hate it when u do the same mistake again.i love it when thinking about u eases the pain but i hate it not knowing whether u do feel the same..i love it when i just love everything about u but i hate it when i cant hate u...

not even a bit.not even close.not even a little.not even at all..."

_________________________________________courtesy from shamir

Yeah..yeah ...am a copycat..Say wutever u wana say, call me wutever u may but as i read his writing...there was only one thing that i wanna say; " been there, done that" .

One thing that i know, those words remind me of wut am feeling rite now...rather deeper...and hating the person whom we admire most is impossible...not even in our dictionary of mind~believe me..its true!!!

p/s: dear to sumone, glad that we've been talkin things out..glad that i've met u...

Froggy days out!!!

Well, there was nothing much i did during last weekend...but again, it's not how many things you have done, it's how much for each stuff you've treasured and cherished!!

saturday(25 march '06)

• juz 'lepak'ing at my house, my parents came from kg, spent some time with them
• later on when they went out to Bentong, Pahang meeting the 'in-laws'
• my ex-coursemates, arep panjang and amer kapitan came and we went for drinks at Starbucks-its been for quite sometimes we didnt meet, reminisced the ol' time when we used to 'lepak' ramai in the club room and mengumpat!!!
• Arep took us for dinner at William's-a nice stall in near ol' LimKokWeng college; the baked pasta and Thripple H were heaven!!!-it was arep's treat, god bless u!
• Went to Abu's house, took my 'wallet' which i left in his house the other day
• Froggy was not feelin' so well, and so i went to froggy's house-no outings for this weekend, but meeting froggy was more interesting than shopping in Harrod's (well, never been to Harrod's before)
• surprisingly, froggy has made a butter scotch especially for me...the taste was yummy !!!

thanx to you~~ (",)

• that very nite, we talked a lot bout our goals..what we gona do in future...and last but not least about us specifically

Sunday (26 march '06)

• Woke up so late! It was almost 11am..kekekekkee...dun ask why!!!
• had my lunch at Froggy's place
• since froggy was not feeling so well, we decided not to go out. Instead, watched naruto which froggy dowloaded until evening
• Evening, we had our tea (well, we went for Mc D and had sodas-it was during tea time) at Sbg Parade..kekekkekee
• Froggy walked me to the Komuter..and i rushed back to kl

Ops..before i forget, there was something that froggy gave me-A BUG. Not an ordinary bug...a special one..kekekekkeke!!!

To worry or not TOO worry???

Starting my shift at 3pm, i got sumfree time to chat in YM and checked my emails and all that. Suddenly, i got this msg from an important person saying that this person's health was not at the best state..n i felt so worried...

And again, after a few conversation with this person, i realised that; by worrying too much, i was not only creating a destructive condition, rather putting much pressure to the person...You see, when u feel worry for someone, it shows that that perticular person is important for you..and telling that person how inportant that person is to you indirectly indicates to that person that that person has to bear such a big responsibility as an important person for you...

In a nutshell, being an important person is not only a privillage but rather a responsibility-one new lesson that i'll never forget!!!


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[15:43] s***: : syg
[15:43] s***: i dah balik umah
[15:43] s***: not feeling well
[15:43] s***: i xnak buat u risau
[15:43] s***: pls jgn risau
[15:43] s***: i nak mkn ubat ni
[15:43] s***: sok g jupe my specialist...ive md n appointment
[15:44] kasthata: syg???
.[15:47] s***: syg
[15:47] s***: pls jgn risau
[15:47] s***: i kat toilet td masa u call..i mandi n rfreshen up
[15:47] kasthata: syg.....
[15:48] kasthata: i x sedap ati...
[15:48] kasthata: :(
[15:48] kasthata: sian u...
[15:48] s***: dun worry
[15:48] s***: please?
[15:48] s***: jgnla risau
[15:48] s***: i tau apa i perlu buat
[15:48] kasthata: i terkejut sgt2 tetiba u anta msg td
[15:48]s***: sbb tu i mintak kebenaran bos i 2 balik awal sbb nak g klinik
[15:49] s***: jgnle camtu
[15:49] s***: u ni..
i[15:49] kasthata: am worry for u...
[15:49] s***: thx 4 the concern
[15:49] s***: i really appreciate it
[15:49]s***: sian u..sampai abis kredit call i td
[15:49] s***: u tau tak u amat penting 4 me..
[15:49] s***: sori sgt
[15:50] kasthata: i cant help myself..thinkin bout u..
[15:50] s***: jgnla ckp camtu
[15:50] kasthata: its ok..
[15:50] s***: u buat i rs bersalah
[15:50] kasthata: u tak wat salah pun..
[15:50] s***: im not all tht
[15:50] kasthata: nape u nak rasa bersalah plak
[15:51] kasthata: ur not all wut??
[15:51] s***: yela..sbb i tlh buat sesuatu yg membuatkan u anggap i important
[15:51] kasthata: ??
[15:51] s***: maksudnya...i bukanlah baik or terbagus
[15:51] kasthata: it doesnt matter syg
[15:51] s***: mungkin ada yg lebih baik buat u kat luar tu
[15:52] kasthata: syg..nape u ckp macam ni?
[15:52] kasthata:
[15:52] s***: pls jgn salah fhm
[15:52] kasthata: smlm u x suke i ckp mcm ni..skg u plak yg ckp
[15:52] kasthata:
[15:52] s***: i hargai the way u treat me..as in im important to u
[15:53] s***: tp pls dont put me as the most important thing in ur life
[15:53] kasthata: bcoz u r sayang..
[15:53] s***: if u do...besar tanggungjawab
[15:53] kasthata: u x suke takpela
[15:53] kasthata: its k
[15:53] s***: bukan i xsuka
[15:53] s***: im really flattered.
[15:53] kasthata: no..its k...
[15:53] s***: cuma i belum buktikan n belum layak utk jd the most important thing 2u just yet
[15:53] s***: pls undestand
[15:53] kasthata: ok...
.[15:54] s***: syg...i tau ur mind is clouded rite now
[15:54] s***: confused
[15:54]s***: lagi2 selepas dgr i ckp camni
[15:55] s***: i teringin nak jadi important 2u....tp buat masa skang i rs i kene usaha lebih utk dptkan title tu
[15:55] s***: syg
[15:55] s***: u ok ?
[15:55] s***: syg
[15:55] kasthata: syg...
[15:55] s***: ye
[15:56] kasthata: sorry..
[15:56] s***: napa sorry?
[15:57] kasthata: i buat u rasa tertekan..sbb like u...i pon berusaha keras nak jd org yg important dlm hidup u...
[15:57] s***: its ok
[15:57] s***: i betul2 appreciate wht u r doin
[15:57] s***: segala usaha u i appreciate
[15:58] kasthata: thnx..
[15:58] kasthata: i pon sama....

>>>end<<<<

Those were some part of our conversation...when i went through back all of our conversation..i noticed that perhaps, i did put some pressure to the air..and for that, my dear am sorry!!!

Beauty-is there an ultimate definition to it??

"When I began my career with Christian Dior in Paris at age 19, my idea of beauty was what others thought about me. If people approved of me and wanted to book me for a modeling job, then I concluded that I must be pretty. My logic was that if I was successful and working then I must be beautiful."-Laura Krauss Calenberg

What is beauty? Everybody wants to be beautiful or in this case, to have a good look. Look has been a crucial feature when one wants to find for partner or soulmate or whatever..It cant be denied that sometimes, we tend to forget that being beautiful doesnt necessarily mean that one has to has fair complexion, muscular or tone body, flawless skin and all that. We forgot one bloody important, the beauty that lies underneath one's skin, deep in one's heart...

It is not physical appearance. It's what's found inside, what's in your heart. Security and self-esteem are beautiful. And knowing God personally brings beauty, because knowing He loves you and accepts you brings security and self-esteem to your life. That enables you to be free to accept and love yourself and your shortcomings.

And as for me, i dont deny that:
1) the 1st impression does come from our look and how we present ourself toward people
2)the 1st impression does not necessarily important
3)i do give a second glance for one who has a nice look
4)but for the 3rd glance, i look deep inside one's heart and try to dicover the beauty of it
5)the inner beauty is important, infact most crucial in searching for one you love

And i specially want to dedicate this post to someone special i have met who has changed my life, boost my spirit and make me feel happy. Someone who i really admire..someone who has biguel shape of heart, beautiful thoughts on me, someone who like me for me....someone who has a beautiful soul and dear, this song is for u....


"Beautiful Soul"

[Intro:]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

[Chorus:]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mindIf you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

[Chorus]
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your soul

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul..
ooooooo...
Beautiful Soul, yeah
oooooo, yeah
Your beautiful soul
yeah

jesse Mccartney

the truth tastes bitter?

"tell the truth even though it tastes bitter"~~

Everytime we question others about certain things, in some parts of our mind do hope for an answer that suited the question.....but what happen when the answer is not likely to we wanted to hear???

For certain people, they will feel depressed and dissapointed..i did feel that way too at times..and what i normally did was, try to think in depth why did i get that kind of answer in the first place, rationalised it and try to compromise with the situation..and it does take time...

At the end, we realised that, at last as long as the answer is the truth, it should be taken into account and we should swallow the truth regardless how bitter it is....

A frog that longed for happy ending

This is a story i've never told anyone before~~a story told by a friend of a friend of a friend of mine...

Once upon a time, there was an ugly frog(F1) which never get engaged with any frog more than 3 months..after couples of depressing relationship, F1 shunned itself from the green world and hid itself under its home sweet coconut shell..
:(

After hiding itself for a couple of months,F1 actually managed to get out of the coconut shell and tried to mingle with other frogs...Things were getting better for F1 until it realised that it was totally a loner!!!~so it prayed hard for the fairyfrog-mother to match it for a partner...

At 1st, it was not blessed until one day when it went for a congress conference and met the perfect frog ever(F2)~(p/s:for a frog, gorgeousness depends on the sound they make while conferencing, =p)

Starting from that very day, those two frogs started to date each other....ops, b4 i forget, their 1st date was in Eygpt; on the top of Giza pyramid peak gazing for the blue moon..kekeke!!

And now...They are still trying to understand each other although they are from the same frog species but different family; and the ugly frog (F1) is now tryin' to cope with its new life with F2 and hopin for a better future~~and ONE thing that they really lookin foward to right now-A happy ENDING

V's day??

Valentine's has passed us by, and I really glad that i had successfully gone through it-am still alive after that day!!!!..kekekkekee...

Well, when Valentine's came, it reminded me of how i am so all alone in this world, not that i dun hav family or what...but it made me realised that my love life is so....BORING!!!!-All this while, i tried to keep myself busy and be around my friends..but that just didnt work on Valentine's!

Well, during valentine's, most of my frens were celebrating it with their partner and lovers or scandals or whutever they may call it...the point is, most of them had their own agenda when V's came..and the winner of the most lonely bachelor is going to Mr Kastriya!!!!!~~~~~~~i heard big applauses~~they are everywhere....or am i too paranoid bout it?????

Hmm, the bottomline is, i endup 3 days on the bed due to high fever illness and took 2 MCs and 3 times visit to the clinic~~my life is complete!!